19 Year Old Guy Trying To Recover From PIED

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GreenSwampMan

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Day 21 - Third week complete!

Yesterday was pretty interesting. After several days of having no libido it came back with a vengeance. I actually got an erection several times throughout the day that were pretty hard. However, I am not sure if that is good because I first got an erection while reading one of the success stories (completely unexpectedly) and because I had some pre-cum leak out of my penis each time I got an erection (just a couple of drops). It was a pretty close call because even without touching I could tell that my penis is quite sensitive. But it seems that right now libido is coming in waves and after being horny yesterday I am not feeling horny at all. Hopefully, it's just a sign that I have some ways to go and not a relapse or something. :eek:
 
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GreenSwampMan

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Day 22

Yesterday was pretty decent as my condition seems to be slightly improving. My libido seems to be getting better. I was browsing the news on Reddit and I noticed a headline about prostitution in Amsterdam which caused me to get a rock-hard erection that was pointed 45 degrees upwards and would not go down for about 8 minutes. And this is without any sort of manual stimulation (or any other kind of sexual stimulation). While I probably should cut down on Reddit just in case and stay vigilant in order to avoid a relapse I can't help but feel that I'm on the right path. :)
 
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h.d.t.

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Good job, I am proud of you! 22 days is amazing. I started a reboot yesterday as well!

If you are worried about looking at porn, I'd suggest a filter such as K9 or Pluckeye for your computer/phone. Not sure what your setup is right now, but that'll help.

Also, setting your homepage on your web-browser to something like diversion.pluckeye.net or another akin will definitely keep your mind from traipsing around on the internet one step at a time!

Good luck, friend!
 
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GreenSwampMan

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h.d.t. said:
Good job, I am proud of you! 22 days is amazing. I started a reboot yesterday as well!

If you are worried about looking at porn, I'd suggest a filter such as K9 or Pluckeye for your computer/phone. Not sure what your setup is right now, but that'll help.

Also, setting your homepage on your web-browser to something like diversion.pluckeye.net or another akin will definitely keep your mind from traipsing around on the internet one step at a time!

Good luck, friend!
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Thanks! Good luck to you too!
 
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GreenSwampMan

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Day 23

Yesterday was alright. I had an erection a few times throughout the day but everything calmed down by the evening and now I am not really feeling any activity below the belt right now. I also had a dream about having sex and then had another dream about relapsing.
 
Pete McVries

Pete McVries

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You are showing pretty good signs of recovery, I'd say. I started to have similar symptoms/signs after the flatline ended after 26 days. Are there any girls you know you could think of dating?
 
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GreenSwampMan

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Pete McVries said:
You are showing pretty good signs of recovery, I'd say. I started to have similar symptoms/signs after the flatline ended after 26 days. Are there any girls you know you could think of dating?
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I'm not really sure about that to be honest but I hope that you're right. Did you have a stable libido/consistent erections after your flatline ended? Because I feel like my libido has completely evaporated today and my penis is completely flaccid. Did your libido fluctuate after the end of the flatline? What was the thing that made you decide that it's time to start dating?

As for dating I'm in a bit of a tricky situation. There was a girl at my university who I think was suspiciously friendly to me but she has a boyfriend now so that ship has sailed (for now at least). I know that next year the university will organize a Valentine's day event where you can participate in speed dating and things like that. However, I am not sure if I want to date anyone from my university because it is relatively small and if I for some will still not be able to perform during sex I'm scared that word will spread around and this will ruin my reputation with my peers.

Another option is online dating. I actually do have several matches lined up already but I still want to wait a few months before trying in order to give myself some additional time to heal. However, dating will be difficult for me because:

1) I have never dated anyone. I have never even kissed a girl. So I have absolutely zero experience.

2) I have huge problems talking to people in general let alone girls. I haven't really had a friend since the 7th grade.

I guess I'll have to wait and see. If I'll get better in the next few I may try going on the Valentine's day event and trying my luck then.

 
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Lero

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GreenSwampMan said:
Day 6

Dreamt about relapsing last night. I have noticed that it is happening rather often now. I guess that?s a sign that my addicted brain desperately wants me to relapse for real. Other than that everything seems fine.
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That's right. I have dreams like that too. The addiction is trying to make us push the dopamine button no matter what.
 
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GreenSwampMan

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Day 24

Not experiencing any urges and I have not been getting any erections. Guess I'm entering another flatline right now.
 
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GreenSwampMan

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Day 25

Yesterday was alright. I no longer have depressive thoughts but I'm a bit anxious and paranoid. I also suffered from insomnia last night but I'm not sure if it is related to my problem.
 
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GreenSwampMan

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Day 26

Things are relatively normal and I'm still flatlining. However, this morning I woke up with morning wood. It was not very hard (I'd say about 40 % hard) but I guess that's still progress because I don't really remember EVER having morning wood. So that's nice.
 
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GreenSwampMan

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Day 27

Yesterday was okay. I woke up with a semi hard-on but it went away quickly. I got a few more semis later during the day. I still have a bit of a problem with sexual thoughts and fantasies but this will get better.
 
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GreenSwampMan

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Day 28

Yesterday was pretty good. My libido must have been high because because I got a rock-hard boner that stayed for about 10 minutes and a couple more semis later in the day. Right now it seems that my libido has returned to its usual state.
 
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GreenSwampMan

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Day 29

So yesterday was a mixed bag. I felt like a had a VERY high libido and random sexual thoughts would cause me to get an erection. However, this also means that it was very hard not to masturbate for me but I managed to push through unharmed. I also reinstalled Tinder on my phone because I was curious if I got any likes and I did but then I remembered that using Tinder is pretty dangerous in my circumstances so I quickly uninstalled it after that. I had several boners throughout the day but they got progressively weaker as it went on. Now it?s morning and my penis feel flaccid and my libido is no longer raging which makes me wonder if I?m entering another flatline or something. We?ll see.

In other news, my birthday is tomorrow and tomorrow will mark a month of me abstaining from PMO. However, since I?m turning 20 tomorrow I will no longer be fit to post in the Teens section. So I will start a new journal in the ?Ages 20-29? section tomorrow.
 
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GreenSwampMan

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Pete McVries said:
Happy birthday! Looking forward to your new journal. May your gains be loyal  ;)
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Thank you Pete! ;D I really appreciate it!
 
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