kadeshzelbriel
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Day 26.
Many of my best friends from high school were in town this week, and we hung out a lot. It was a highly inspiring and reinvigorating experience.
1) one of my friends has been vegan for a few years and runs 60 miles a week. I'm extremely impressed and feel like I absorbed some serious empowerment just from being around him. In particular I got a burrito in his style - rice, beans, guacamole, and fries - and it was really good. I want in to that kind of power. I walked 8 miles yesterday and ran this morning, just 1.5 miles. I want to do 5 miles this week, maybe add 1 or 2 miles every week.
2) I remembered more about the power of masculinity. I abandoned masculinity when I took up feminism, which wasn't really necessary but I was happy to go with it at the time. But it ended up turning me into a lot of turmoil, and I lost one of my great sources of internal strength and power. Due to emotional work ive done for a few years, I feel much less self doubt, much less shame. I'm here to reclaim these inner resources from a good place, without any misogynist baggage. It feels good inside to do so. There's a lot for me to explore here, especially around heterosexuality in particular. I don't know how my partner will feel about this. She's very politically queer and rejects most gendered thinking, although I've sometimes felt and appreciated a strong feminine-masculine polarity in our sexual connection. I feel inclined to explore this all energetically with her before bringing in the gender language specifically, and in any case it's the energy I want, not the language.
In strength,
KZ
Many of my best friends from high school were in town this week, and we hung out a lot. It was a highly inspiring and reinvigorating experience.
1) one of my friends has been vegan for a few years and runs 60 miles a week. I'm extremely impressed and feel like I absorbed some serious empowerment just from being around him. In particular I got a burrito in his style - rice, beans, guacamole, and fries - and it was really good. I want in to that kind of power. I walked 8 miles yesterday and ran this morning, just 1.5 miles. I want to do 5 miles this week, maybe add 1 or 2 miles every week.
2) I remembered more about the power of masculinity. I abandoned masculinity when I took up feminism, which wasn't really necessary but I was happy to go with it at the time. But it ended up turning me into a lot of turmoil, and I lost one of my great sources of internal strength and power. Due to emotional work ive done for a few years, I feel much less self doubt, much less shame. I'm here to reclaim these inner resources from a good place, without any misogynist baggage. It feels good inside to do so. There's a lot for me to explore here, especially around heterosexuality in particular. I don't know how my partner will feel about this. She's very politically queer and rejects most gendered thinking, although I've sometimes felt and appreciated a strong feminine-masculine polarity in our sexual connection. I feel inclined to explore this all energetically with her before bringing in the gender language specifically, and in any case it's the energy I want, not the language.
In strength,
KZ