Its time to really change

[Do or die]

Day 2 at june 21
Completed day 1,successfully.

 

[BlueHeronFan]

Good work! Keep doing what you need to do to make it through tomorrow. You can do one more day no problem

 

[Do or die]

Thanks for support

 

[BlueHeronFan]

That's what this forum is all about. If we try to do this alone, we're way more likely to fail.

Keep going!

 

[Lero]

I think you have already found some of your answers. You're relapsing more because you have less to do and you are spending more time alone.

What can you do to stay busier and spend more time around other people? I don't really like going out or being people that much, but it's a matter of survival if it means staying away from porn. Even if it seems hard, you have to be deliberate about filling your day with good activities. If you leave room in your day for porn, it will always take control.

Spending time alone is definitely a problem. I've experienced that. Also, when you don't find things to do that you can enjoy, you are more likely to feel low, deprived of "joy" if you understand what I mean, and look for "ways" to "elevate" yourself and bring some "joy" to your moment, and P is right there. P is the fake pleasure that promises to make you feel good and forget about everything.

There is the other side of the coin too: P numbs your dopamine receptors and could make you not enjoy other things too much. You might want to lie down all day without doing nothing. That's why is very necessary to stay away from P and do those other things and try to enjoy them even if you don't right now. You have to push through it until you get used to it. While some people might enjoy doing things alone, majority of people need to spend time with others and find activities with them (that's me - I like to do some things by myself but I get bored eventually).

Not less important is investing your energy in good things, because PMO consumes your energy and, at the end of the day, it's also comes down to what you choose to invest your energy in. You know that investing this energy in P doesn't leave you energy for other things that's why you don't want to do anything anymore after PMO. I just want to sleep after that. When I was in high school, I didn't know that I shouldn't have PMO-ed first thing in the morning. I would do it a few times before leaving for high school so I went to classes feeling already tired, dragging my feet and stuff. I had thrown away a part of my energy with a "second of pleasure".

 

[Do or die]

Day 11 with new success.
Enjoying this success and trying to keep it continue

 

[Lero]

Day 11 with new success.
Enjoying this success and trying to keep it continue

Wow, man! 11 days! Come on, this is more progress than before! What did help you this time? Keep doing this to help you further. Never lose good streaks. It's a hustle to get them back. If you have good streak, just keep going.

 

[Do or die]

Day 11 with new success.
Enjoying this success and trying to keep it continue

Wow, man! 11 days! Come on, this is more progress than before! What did help you this time? Keep doing this to help you further. Never lose good streaks. It's a hustle to get them back. If you have good streak, just keep going.

Thanks bro

 

[achilles heel]

Day 11 with new success.
Enjoying this success and trying to keep it continue

Congrats, that's a big success! 

Now that you went 11 days clean, you will make it to 12 days and so on... all the best for you!

 

[Mrblueberry]

Nice bro 11 days!! We on similar streaks, i am on 10 days today. Let's keep going man, today i had a though day but i persisted!

 

[BlueHeronFan]

Way to be, man! That's good progress. Now just keep doing what you're doing for one more day. (And then one more)

 

[Do or die]

Nice bro 11 days!! We on similar streaks, i am on 10 days today. Let's keep going man, today i had a though day but i persisted!

Yes bro

 

[Do or die]

Day 12
1st July 2019
Its a big success. Hudge success for me.
What helped me??
1. Regular exercise
2. Regular Meditation on how porn effected my life and i need to get it back, and how i can achieve it.
3. Being busy all the time.
4. Trying new things to enjoy.

 

[No regrets]

Hope your day is going well. You are strong and I believe in you. Go ahead and do your best! By being who you are, you?re making an impact on the world by first trying to change yourself  . Never stop dreaming, fella. Keep doing what you?re doing

 

[Do or die]

relapsed at night. Am not able to sleep till i pmo'd. So relapse happened .
Day 1 at july 2
New reboot with another new challenge.
Prepare your urges well. If you know your urges and trigger it make easy to achieve

 

[Do or die]

Relapsed at july 2 also.
Badly going through the hell.

 

[Do or die]

Day 0 : relapsed at 10 am
Goal: to not relapse from now. To aware about urges.

 

[Do or die]

Today's withdrawals:
Can't able to sleep.
Feeling tired.
Not able to focus on study.
Want more porn .

 

[Do or die]

Relapsed again.

 

[Do or die]

At 12 pm i relapsed again
So i starting new reboot from 12 pm.
Reality is horrible for me. Relapsed three times in two days. So badly wasted 3 years of my life. Getting bored by starting reboot again and again. I need a final reboot. Don't want to get back but i am pmoing . why i don't know properly.