Mrblueberry
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Hello, i am a 22 year old porn recovering addict from the Netherlands. I will write a short story so you get to know my situation and can asses wether you have a simular problem. If so, i would like to beat porn with you, as with a friend who holds you accountable beating an addiction can be much easier. Well then..
I have been watching porn since my 15th birthday or so. I watched normal soft porn the very first years. When i became 18th my porn habits began to change, i came accros weird categories on the homepage and clicked on it only to find it very repulsive. I can remember clicking a cuckold video and find find it very repulsive and clicked it away after a few seconds. Anyway my taste slowly began to change and i would watch anal porn, animal porn, and eventually i began to watch sissy porn, cuckold porn. I was completely unaware of the consequences of porn and i would continue to watch these kinds of porn eventhough i feeled massive shame and guilt because of it.
A couple of months later i met my former gf which i had a relation with for 3 years. I never had sex before and was kind of nervous, the first time i wanted to have sex with her so bad but my dick was sort of limp. I went to my doctor and he was willing to give me viagra (to take the pressure of). The next time me and my former gf tried to have sex, it was all on and i could fuck her without a problem, even went for a second time within the hour. At that time i was amazed how good normal sex was versus porn so i stopped watching porn for months. But after that period, sex with my gf didn't arouse me the way it did at first, so i began watching porn again reguraly. I watched porn 5 times a week at that time and simultanously had sex with my gf. My desire to have real sex detoriated and i even desired watching porn more then have sex with my gf.
I was disgusted with myself but i couldn't battle my porn addiction, eventually my gf and i seperated ways (this was around 1 year ago). Since then i quit watching porn only to find myself relapsing. Everytime i wanted sex with a girl, 4 times since the breakup i didn't feel a real desire for sex with the girls, my dick would go limp. I think my porn watching is declined by 80% or so because now i wank for like 2 times pro month instead of 5 times a week. But still i want to quit watching it all together because porn to me induces feelings like fear, shame, feeling unworthy because i can't get my dick up with a real woman.
My goal is to eradicate porn from my life and have caring good sex again without worrying my dick will go hard and with the desire for real sex! In a month or so i will be going overseas to study and i would have the option to meet girls there and maybe have sex with. I don't want to go abroad with pmo addiction! Note that in the last half year i watched porn like 4 times pro month, so i progressed alot, but i want to fully stop with this.
I would like to team up with someone to beat the addiction and hold together accountable, feel free to contact me!
greetings
I have been watching porn since my 15th birthday or so. I watched normal soft porn the very first years. When i became 18th my porn habits began to change, i came accros weird categories on the homepage and clicked on it only to find it very repulsive. I can remember clicking a cuckold video and find find it very repulsive and clicked it away after a few seconds. Anyway my taste slowly began to change and i would watch anal porn, animal porn, and eventually i began to watch sissy porn, cuckold porn. I was completely unaware of the consequences of porn and i would continue to watch these kinds of porn eventhough i feeled massive shame and guilt because of it.
A couple of months later i met my former gf which i had a relation with for 3 years. I never had sex before and was kind of nervous, the first time i wanted to have sex with her so bad but my dick was sort of limp. I went to my doctor and he was willing to give me viagra (to take the pressure of). The next time me and my former gf tried to have sex, it was all on and i could fuck her without a problem, even went for a second time within the hour. At that time i was amazed how good normal sex was versus porn so i stopped watching porn for months. But after that period, sex with my gf didn't arouse me the way it did at first, so i began watching porn again reguraly. I watched porn 5 times a week at that time and simultanously had sex with my gf. My desire to have real sex detoriated and i even desired watching porn more then have sex with my gf.
I was disgusted with myself but i couldn't battle my porn addiction, eventually my gf and i seperated ways (this was around 1 year ago). Since then i quit watching porn only to find myself relapsing. Everytime i wanted sex with a girl, 4 times since the breakup i didn't feel a real desire for sex with the girls, my dick would go limp. I think my porn watching is declined by 80% or so because now i wank for like 2 times pro month instead of 5 times a week. But still i want to quit watching it all together because porn to me induces feelings like fear, shame, feeling unworthy because i can't get my dick up with a real woman.
My goal is to eradicate porn from my life and have caring good sex again without worrying my dick will go hard and with the desire for real sex! In a month or so i will be going overseas to study and i would have the option to meet girls there and maybe have sex with. I don't want to go abroad with pmo addiction! Note that in the last half year i watched porn like 4 times pro month, so i progressed alot, but i want to fully stop with this.
I would like to team up with someone to beat the addiction and hold together accountable, feel free to contact me!
greetings