11 years Addiction and My 365 Days Challange

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weir

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I have been addicted to P and M from age of 12 or 13 to now at age of 24 years...

last Masturbation was yesterday...

last watching porn was yesterday...

I am not married yet but also have no gf

I am still virgin...no sex at all in my 24 years age...even I haven't touch a girl..

One think i noticed when i was mastrubating that i am cumming very early like just say 1 or 2 second..

I am getting married next month...One think i fear...will i able to perform or not..

any inputs or questions help me to write more and start me of my recovering process..

What i have done in past I am really feeling regret...I am no more Smart Intelligent Man...

From Last year I have addicted to CUCKOLD tyep of porn...though I am not married Yet...I am getting excited just by watching this porn or bisexual porn..

help me...I want to become nice person again

 
persian29

persian29

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weir said:
I have been addicted to P and M from age of 12 or 13 to now at age of 24 years...

One think i noticed when i was mastrubating that i am cumming very early like just say 1 or 2 second..
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This right here says everything. You are very sensitized to porn. If you are reaching an orgasm after only 1 or 2 seconds than your brain is way too overstimulated  and needs a long vacation. Its hard for everyone but you just have to tell yourself that the benefits are worth the wait, and they really are. This website is all about everyone helping each other achieve their nofap goals and even possibly other issues you may be experiencing. we will be glad to help you and provide guidance, support, and feedback on your new journey but it takes alot of will and perserverance on your own as well.anyway, i have a question about your story. Please correct me if I read this wrong but it states that you do not have a GF but are getting married next month. could you please elaborate?
 
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weir

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persian29 said:
weir said:
I have been addicted to P and M from age of 12 or 13 to now at age of 24 years...

One think i noticed when i was mastrubating that i am cumming very early like just say 1 or 2 second..
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This right here says everything. You are very sensitized to porn. If you are reaching an orgasm after only 1 or 2 seconds than your brain is way too overstimulated  and needs a long vacation. Its hard for everyone but you just have to tell yourself that the benefits are worth the wait, and they really are. This website is all about everyone helping each other achieve their nofap goals and even possibly other issues you may be experiencing. we will be glad to help you and provide guidance, support, and feedback on your new journey but it takes alot of will and perserverance on your own as well.anyway, i have a question about your story. Please correct me if I read this wrong but it states that you do not have a GF but are getting married next month. could you please elaborate?
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Thanks for reply
Yes I dont have any gf..
Yep I am getting married next month..Its arrange marriage both of our family decided and I am happy about it.
but I have concern whetheror not i will be able to satisfy her\?
but I am thinking to get in +ve direction..
 
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weir

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slappyjerrby said:
Be prepared for a battle and use small accomplishment as motivating.  And good luck and God speed.
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thanks for motivation...
Its my 2nd day with no P and M
 
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weir

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succcefully went 2 days...didnt watch any videos or any single pics...or even fantasize

3rd day is also comes to over
 
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weir

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Almost 4 days have completed since I last watch and did masturbate..from yesterday my body is heating up..can anyone experience the same..??
 
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weir

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ok Now 5 days have completed since I watched any porn or masturbate but today i feel sudden erection in my penis in morning, I hardly sleep for about 4 hours, when I research on internet then I found that its called morning wood which is symptom of ED, I also had naked dreams all night and I hardly sleep for 4 hours only..

Need suggestion
 
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Clover

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Mate, the morning wood is not a symptom of ED. It's absolutely normal to have one. I'm not aware of the physiological background behind it but I'm 100% certain it's not a symptom at all.
Look for the reboot nation channel on YouTube, they've got a video about the issue.
Don't worry and keep going!
 
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weir

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Clover said:
Mate, the morning wood is not a symptom of ED. It's absolutely normal to have one. I'm not aware of the physiological background behind it but I'm 100% certain it's not a symptom at all.
Look for the reboot nation channel on YouTube, they've got a video about the issue.
Don't worry and keep going!
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First thanks for the reply mate, and thanks for the info but I read on Google search that morning wood is probably symptom of ED but don't know about it but as you said I hope its not, I already damaged myself so hard but Hoping I will leave porn completely as you see 6 days has already gone as in my life of 11 years of watching porn of different genre category and big fan of some of the stars in that industry, turned out to be scary life threatening injuries to my body, Porn is curse for my life one of the major reasons of my failure, I dont want to go there and I don't to waste my life, I don't want to touch myself but if I do then I will become looser as people are becoming (cuckold) in their lives!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
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weir

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It's day 9, and today from desires are coming to my brain, and also penis is getting erections but one thing I don't know. Why I am getting erections I am not fantasizing nor I am watching porn movies
 
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weir

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It is indeed happy day.
After 11 years of addiction of porn and masturbates,  I haven't done anything like that in my past days
Feeling happy and strong
Need your support to complete my goal for 365 days but 355 days still remaining
I will continue daily share my experience and now I am feeling that I can also share tiny smaller details about my life
Thank you
 
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weir

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20 Days Completed..

Feeling Like I am Being I am once Again..No more Stress on Brain, Energetic!
 
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weir

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presson said:
Well done. Keep it up!
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Thanks for encouragement

Completed 21 Days, Do you know what it means?
It means full 3 weeks without P and M.

I am getting new motivation new hope new goals, I know I can do it....Yeeeeeeeeeaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh
 
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weir

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Day 22

Today 1st time in 11 years I have My nightFall, but I am just 22 days in my reboot process, is it positive symptoms?
 
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weir

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positive_beginning said:
I'm following your posts..I'm much like in the sense that i never had touched any girl ..
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Thanks for support, We both can get away from this addiction soon.

Day 28

Today Feeling many urges to go to the root where I was from last 11 years so instead of going there, I come here writing this post/
Due to excessive used of sexually explicit materials my libido gone  I have ED too if I go back there then again my 28 days work will be gone again.
So Help me motivate me and try to remind not to go there guyz.
Feeling little bit headache but its ok, will go out of my dark room and try to chill out myself.
 
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positive_beginning

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You are doing a great streak mate..Remember this moment will pass,and with it you will experience temporary pain but in the end you can imagine...visualize a bit about your future if you kick this

Ask strength from the creator ,connect with some old friends on the phone (if you can't meet )

You have done this for so long, you can still continue doing the same-kick the demon put from your life-even peeking the filth is not an option
 
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