Hope the job comes through.Ok, so, I'm back, and now lots to update. I have been praying for a few things (no need to mention everything here, it would be a book). But, since the start of this month, 6 companies have reached out for a discussion. One of them, I don't have any experience, and the salary I would need from them would be a senior salary. I had to be transparent and turn it down. I would be stressed, and the boss would be frustrated (with the salary he would be paying, vs the productivity from me wouldn't balance).
Then, I have 2 big companies with which I have had a couple of interviews. Each of them offers a salary with a nearly $12k increase compared to what I'm making now.
So seriously hoping I get an offer.
Now on the porn side of things, I have finally caved, since I can't do this alone, and downloaded "Covenant Eyes" on my devices. And a very close friend from childhood (friends for about 40 yrs) accepted he be my accountability partner.
Just with this new app, I haven't searched anything questionable on my phone, nor on my PC. I am fully anticipating my urges to start getting stronger as days roll on, however, if this is the extra kick in the pants I needed, so be it.
Reading blogs on those blockers, it's usually when a person becomes so defeated in their own journey, that as soon as something goes cross in their lives, they give up. That's where I am now, on multiple fronts. Marriage, sex life, finances, job, physical fitness...and the list goes on. I also know I'm absolutely done with porn. While the screen images are always pretty and enticing, we have to remember, they are actors (and possibly trafficked women, based on some research I have done).
So, this is my first 24 hrs done. 48 hrs, you're coming up fast.