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addictnomore
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After more than 35 years of increasing addiction, I feel like I have hit rock bottom. PMO has been part of my daily routine since I found my dad's Penthouse in the sixth grade. But I can't do it anymore. All the wasted time, the shame, the secrecy. Porn is my drug, and I'm deeply addicted.
It has gotten so bad that I feel like there's nowhere to go but up. Unless I quit, my only other option is to surrender and accept that this is my life, shattered and dark. I'm on day 3, and when the urges come, sometimes I'm tempted to do just that, surrender.
For those of you who have been porn free for awhile, is it worth it? Will I feel different? I don't know what a porn-free life would be like. I have never experienced it.
Did I use porn today? No
What were my triggers? Boredom, habit, sadness thinking about the toll porn has taken on my life
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? walking, healthy lunch, spending time in nature
What am I grateful for today? hope
Day counter! 3
It has gotten so bad that I feel like there's nowhere to go but up. Unless I quit, my only other option is to surrender and accept that this is my life, shattered and dark. I'm on day 3, and when the urges come, sometimes I'm tempted to do just that, surrender.
For those of you who have been porn free for awhile, is it worth it? Will I feel different? I don't know what a porn-free life would be like. I have never experienced it.
Did I use porn today? No
What were my triggers? Boredom, habit, sadness thinking about the toll porn has taken on my life
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? walking, healthy lunch, spending time in nature
What am I grateful for today? hope
Day counter! 3