Hello everyone. Five years ago I joined this community under the name of neuenman, I put in a good effort and managed a 90 day streak, then I fell to pieces and in shame never returned here. Needless to say that was a stupid mistake. A couple of years after I managed another 90 day streak but it went the same way. I was 48 then, now I'm 53.
I need help, someone to lean on when I'm about to fall, I'm very tired of my unhappiness and the unhappiness I cause to others, I'm tired of all the shame and fear and sadness.
I'm on a 35 day streak, I'm getting through today but I want to get through tomorrow and the day after and so on. Please help me guys, if I know anything is that I can't do this in a vacuum, I have to be accountable to someone. I realize that "eyecan" sounds cocky as a handle but I got to believe that it is possible. Otherwise I might as well end it all, I had enough.
My story is here if someone wants to read it: http://legacy.rebootnation.org/index.php?topic=4279.msg44758#msg44758
Right now I'm dealing with blurry vision, frequent urination, sadness, fatigue, erotic dreams, testicle pain. Great fun.
I need help, someone to lean on when I'm about to fall, I'm very tired of my unhappiness and the unhappiness I cause to others, I'm tired of all the shame and fear and sadness.
I'm on a 35 day streak, I'm getting through today but I want to get through tomorrow and the day after and so on. Please help me guys, if I know anything is that I can't do this in a vacuum, I have to be accountable to someone. I realize that "eyecan" sounds cocky as a handle but I got to believe that it is possible. Otherwise I might as well end it all, I had enough.
My story is here if someone wants to read it: http://legacy.rebootnation.org/index.php?topic=4279.msg44758#msg44758
Right now I'm dealing with blurry vision, frequent urination, sadness, fatigue, erotic dreams, testicle pain. Great fun.