Hi guys, thanks for the replies, I thought I should give an update since I haven't been active in 2 weeks here. It's been a little over two weeks since that stupid 5min relapse on day 100 and here is the report:
- The good:
I feel like no progress has been lost, it just stagnated for 2 weeks or so, and I feel like I'm just now continuing from where I left off on day 100. This is a good thing to know if you relapse for some stupid reason like I have, just don't give in to urges and don't binge for the love of god and you will be good, yes your progress will be frozen for 2 weeks, but then it will continue from where it left off. I had some amazing nocturnal erections during these 2 weeks and I also had a decent amount of sex too, no problems there, had one last night and one this morning. Usually if a go a few days without orgasm I'm super sensitive and come really fast, like last night but the round two can last for as long as I want like this morning, so can't complain there. This morning was probably the best sex I had since I started the reboot in august, not just for me but for her as well, judging from the big smile at the end. So again, nothing to complain there.
- The bad:
Even though the relapse didn't destroy any progress the urges to watch porn were unbearable. Literally unberable. No wonder 99% of people binge after a relapse and fuck everything up. I have no idea how I managed to resist. I didn't know I had this amount of will power. I guess I knew if I give in my 100 days progress will be lost and that kept me safe. Bit still every day was a struggle, just goes to show how deep the adiction goes. After about 10 days or so the urges subsided and now I'm back to where I was at day 100. But still, last 2 weeks were really hard addiction wise but I managed to come out undefeated.
-Conclusion:
I have been avoiding the forum for these 2 weeks and will continue to do so in the future, coming here roughly every two weeks or so just to post an update. I realized that I started obsessing with this shit and coming here every day just to read stories and bum myself out for no reason. The only thing worse than PIED is obsessing over PIED, and once I just forgot that I have PIED and didn't even think about it thing reealy started improving. Don't underestimate the power of the mind, just try to forget that you have this thing in the first place, continue with your life like PIED doesn't exist and soon it really won't exist for you. Yes this forums are useful but if you start living here you are trading one addiction for another, get all the info you need, make a plan for the reboot, stick to it and give the forums a rest. If you come here every day to read stories and troubles of other people iti actually counter productive. You have PIED. You know what the cure is. Stick to it, it does work, my story is a great example, and don't come here to compare yourself and overthink everything. Again, forget that you have PIED and in time you will not have it for real. Also, don't use counters once you go more than a month, they do more harm than good at that point.
Generally I feel really good, one might say I'm cured, but since I did have that stupid relapse two weeks ago, it means that, at least, porn adiction is still there even though PIED is mostly gone. But if things continue like this, I might post a success story at the start of next year. Will keep you updated every 2 weeks or so.