Hello everybody,
I'm here because I started watching porn i think 10 years ago. I say "I think" because i'm not sure. What I know is that it started really slowly, even if it started with high speed porn. At the time I was confused by my sexuality, I thought i was gay (now I know I'm bi) and I used porn to hide myself and my sexuality in front of others.
I don't remember when it became a routine, but that is what happened. And I think I increased my "tolerance" (I don't know how else to say that but I think you know what I mean).
Last year, I first realized I could have a problem with porn: I had my first boyfriend, and I couldn't get physically fully aroused, but mentally I was. The first time I blamed it on anxiety. It happened again, I blamed it on something else. And so on. Then I decided to stop porn, I made it for a week or two, I relapsed. It happened few times, I think because I was not fully convinced about my porn addiction.
Now I am. The last time I had sex I could not get aroused, by nothing my (now) ex-boyfriend made, and I found this site and YBOP.
Today is the 12th day without porn, and I feel like I'm doing nothing that improved my condition. It was extremely hard these days because I have to study on my PC and porn is just one new window away.
Thank you for reading this, please for today I need suggestion on how to face this huge unavoidable trigger.
I'm here because I started watching porn i think 10 years ago. I say "I think" because i'm not sure. What I know is that it started really slowly, even if it started with high speed porn. At the time I was confused by my sexuality, I thought i was gay (now I know I'm bi) and I used porn to hide myself and my sexuality in front of others.
I don't remember when it became a routine, but that is what happened. And I think I increased my "tolerance" (I don't know how else to say that but I think you know what I mean).
Last year, I first realized I could have a problem with porn: I had my first boyfriend, and I couldn't get physically fully aroused, but mentally I was. The first time I blamed it on anxiety. It happened again, I blamed it on something else. And so on. Then I decided to stop porn, I made it for a week or two, I relapsed. It happened few times, I think because I was not fully convinced about my porn addiction.
Now I am. The last time I had sex I could not get aroused, by nothing my (now) ex-boyfriend made, and I found this site and YBOP.
Today is the 12th day without porn, and I feel like I'm doing nothing that improved my condition. It was extremely hard these days because I have to study on my PC and porn is just one new window away.
Thank you for reading this, please for today I need suggestion on how to face this huge unavoidable trigger.