ACCOUNTABILITY PARTNER FOR BLOCKERX

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Hgdo78

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Hey pengyty

stay strong there dont give in, the simplest things can help you get through, I am going through something i could have never imagen it in my life.  I am a God Believer and I do believe that bad things happens to good people and bad people, but what matters is who is on your side when you are down, I have God, Jesus, and family.  I was very lonely a few days back but i am getting stronger each day, because i will not let porn destroy 20 years of marriage.  my wife and I worked hard at it and we had some ups and downs which is normal in any relationship.  sso lets keep each other going, I have set up so when some one respond i know right away, if you need to chat we can figure how to do it and help each other.  but you need to put the work on it, don't do things or be around things that will make you do porn, my things has always being women, specially when i can see there thongs or even the shape of it. that always put me over the edge.  than it was straight to the bathroom and porn.  now when I see a sexy women i try to keep my mind busy with what i have being going through and what will the consequences of me going back to that again, and that is helping me.  i am working on getting books to read more about it also.  keep in touch
 
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pengyty121

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Hey Hgdo,

thank you. Reading your post gives me lots of energy, I felt like to relapse again, but you are right, today is a new day, I will and must not give in. Have a nice day bro.
 
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Hgdo78

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Pengyty

Don?t let the feeling take over your mind, we need to rewrite our Brian?s to understand that we don?t need porn. Don?t tell your self you can?t go look at just think as I choose not to look at it because it will damage my life. Start with that. Take care
 
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Hgdo78

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Hey there guys still here 9 days and going strong dealing with emotions  about leaving my family but nothing with porn I have no need for that junk any more
 
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Hgdo78

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Covenent eyes is working for me, and you have to put the work on it also.  I am reading stuff about this addiction but you have to figure out what is triggering you to go back and look at it. If it means stay away from tv for awhile so be it.  listen I was using porn everyday sometimes twice a day, so if I can do it so can you. Stay strong I am on day 10
 
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pengyty121

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Day 3, every time I relapse I feel the connection to that porn part of the brain get stronger, but I choose to cut that part off my brain, day3, still a long way to go, keep strong!
 
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Hgdo78

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pengyty

how are things going with you today, I hope you are still strong and standing firm, I am here now at a new place but surrounded by great people.  they all know my situation and they are willing to help me.  Find some one that you can call when urges starts to drive you crazy or even better before it does.  I found to me works on thinking what i will lose if I start again and that is not an option.

stay firm.  keep going I am day 11 now
 
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Hgdo78

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  the only way that will work is if you have some one put a password on your phone and computer to stop you.  that way you cant cancel the block.  day 12 for me now and still strong, I wont let the thoughts come in my head.  stay strong my friend dont give up.  I got my sister right now as my accountable and she will kick me if I do anything wrong.  She knows how important my family is to me.
 
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Hgdo78

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That?s too bad man, but don?t give up, start by stoping to look at pages that you know it will temper you, stay away from social media sites also. 
 
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pengyty121

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Hey Hgdo,

thanks for your support! I didnt notice that our replies are on page 2 now! Today is my day 7, I felt so shamed that I relapsed twice and didnt come back at that day, these days I was not at home so I felt good and didnt even think about those porn, but I do need to find a way to block porn from my pc entirely, I can't let my mom or dad be my accoutable parnter I'm afraid to tell them about this, and yes, you are right, I think a good environment>habits>passion, the BlockerX I used didnt work for me, it would block my browser wrongly from time to time, and I cannot just turn to an accoutable partner everytime when the software goes wrong. So I am just trying to use another account as a root account and block all porn websites, I give the password to my parents so that they dont know what is about. Or maybe I should just try macOS, it works better than windows when it comes to porn blocking.

You did a great job bro, way better than I did, don't give up! I came to the forum for once or twice and saw your post, you are an iron man! Glad to hear that you are supported by your sister and families, today is your 17 or 18th day I guess? keep going, I heard that the first month is the hardest. I am embarrassed to say but actually 30 days is the longest time I held up to, haha, you can do 100 days bro, stay strong!
 
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Hgdo78

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Don?t be scare of telling your parents, I was also but I did it and it will take a big wait of your shoulders.  I am also a bible believer which is helping me also. To keep my mind off the temptation and everything else.  Don?t ever feel ashamed for relapsing, it?s your brain starving for the feelings it get off it.  But you are stronger, and you can do it.  I don?t know where you are but I am EST in Canada. I get an email when you replay so just write it here and we can chat when you need.  Yes today I am 18 days free I am not looking for 100 days I am looking at a life project.  Loosing my God and family is not an option for me. I am also 42 so I have to get things ready now.  Don?t be discouraged, get up and fight back harder and harder.  You can do this.
 
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pengyty121

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Hey Hgdo, thanks for your post, feeling your determination I'm sure you can do this. TOday is my day 9 and it felt a bit hard, I try not to do too much work today cause it will make me want to search for some porn to escape from pressure, this is really a bit hard for me I guess, harder than I though at day1 :-D  I'm 28 now and I start watching porn when I was 15, it's all through my teenage, really hard to believe that I have already live more time with porn than without it! this is terrible, I wasted too much time and energy on this. I live currently in Germany and am about to move to Netherlands, also you can write me here when you need a talk, I'll response to you as long as I'm not sleeping, keep going!
 
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Mikeyp8619

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pengyty121 said:
SantaKiller12 said:
I haven't used that particular application, but I use Covenant Eyes. I wasn't too happy about the fact that I had to pay for a somewhat pricy subscription (P.S. they give you military discounts if you email them) but it well worth every penny! I'm a huge tech nerd so finding work arounds in most porn blockers is fairly easy for me. I have yet to find anything that works to get around this blocker.
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Hey Santa, thanks for the response, I didn?t expect I would really get a reply here, I?ll also try Covenant eye as you said, BlockerX also needs be paid for subscription, to be honest there are many bugs in the software but it is still a good one to block porn in general, bro hope your reboot work out fine, take care
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Pengyty121.

I also use Covenant Eyes, and it has helped me a lot. Also (this is just my opinion), I would recommend finding an accountability partner who is close to you and knows you personally. It makes it more worthwhile because you don't want to let that person down; there is a greater incentive to do well. Although we are all comrades battling together here on Reboot Nation, we are still strangers, and so I think there is less motivation or a feeling of shame or frustration if you have a stranger as a partner. I also had to tell my dad my problem because I was sneaking on his computer. I just told him I have a problem with pornography and asked if he could change the password to his computer, and he was very supportive. Most people would like to help. Good luck!
 
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Hgdo78

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Hey pengyty

Yes I use covenant eyes also, I got my sister as the accountable person.  Also if you would like I a part of a group called PAA and it?s free to join we have phone meetings everyday where people share there felling and situation as they arrive daily.  It?s helping me a lot
 
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Hgdo78

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Yes it?s a place where men and women talk about there addiction to Porn, we share experiences, feelings and call on each other to get help like when you need to talk to some one when things are going wrong.  This is a place where people that wants to stop looking at porn and get there life back. I really enjoy it
 
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