lyon03
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HeavenxxnxxHell said:Day 33
I still don't understand the root cause of my desire to use... Is it now just habit from years and years of using, or do some of the underlying issues that caused me to use for the first time as a child still exist? What does healthy sexuality look like - is it the same for every person? If people have had a particular fetish or fantasy that dominated their life have they been able to get over it, or does a part of it always remain? I feel like a long way from the answers now, but have to believe I can uncover some knowledge and understanding through this process that will help me in the future.
This is a great thread and very well written. So thank you very much for sharing so openly and honestly. If you haven't already done so, I'd download an e-copy of "Your Brain on Porn" by Gary Wilson. While the book doesn't delve into healthy sexuality (what's healthy anymore?) it does explain the neuroscience of our addiction and touches on the issue of why we focus on strange and new fetishes. If you haven't already read it, I found when I did it helped me get proper perspective on my PMO addiction.
Keep posting and stay strong. PORN IS NOT AN OPTION.