Thedrummer
Member
Okay so I'm going to get straight to the point. I'm 25. Have been addicted to porm for 12 years and since 2015 I've had really really really bad symptoms up until now. Struggled insanely with social anxiety I never really had. Past few years been in my first relationship with a girl and still with her. Had lots of sex out first 2 years and after those 2 years our sex life was pretty shitty because of me. Major pied. No stamina. Having to fantasize. Or even smoke weed to get aroused. She is very sexy. But my porn addiction fucked me up. But yesterday for the 1st time in a long long time. We had amazing sex. Long foreplay before actually fucking. I was so into it. She was super hot to me. Didn't touch my junk as much and was still hard as rock. Anyway, she absolutely loved it and I think she was surprised. I haven't really gone in a long streak before, 2020 I tried my best to recover but relapsed few times. I also relapsed once a week ago but that's it. This year I have big goals for myself to rewire my brain. I've struggled a lot and depressed a lot and very sad of my life. Porn destroyed pretty much everything in my life. My way of thinking, my jobs, my relationships, family, friends, made me very jealous and insecure, brain fog, memory, constantly down, constantly thinking in the past and future, my lack of social skills kills me, I'm afraid to make friends, to laugh, I'm afraid and nervous to do simple things. But anyway, maybe it's because we were drunk and high and having a good time. But I've been drunk and high before and my sex wasn't like that. I wasn't fantasizing at all. I was enjoying our sex. Anybody want to let me know whu this may have happened?