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Arya

Member
anyway...WOW man! 90 days without porn after 13 years of addiction! before this I tried to quit porn thousand time but I never succeeded I almost though it is impossible! 
 

Stiffy

Active Member
Good job man! That's inspirational. I have 9 days, and that's the longest I've gone since I can remember. Way to go, keep it up and don't doubt yourself!
 

Arya

Member
I don't know how to confess this, but after 96 days of porn free I relapsed , I just fooled myself and did it. by the way I don't want to condemn myself! I am restarting another goal that is :reach 108 days of absolutely porn free... 

 

Arya

Member
After i completed my first 90 days and I still felt heavy and depressed, and that was one of reasons I fooled myself to relapse after 90 days! because I always thought that when I finish this 90 days I will no longer be under everyday pressure of sex! and as I have a situation that I don't have a sex buddy yet, and if i had one I wouldn't engage in porn at all for sure!  I am not even a bit of the guys that may have relationship but still think about porn, I mean lack of a relationship and real sex were my main cause to watch porn. otherwise I didn't need to engage porn. my current problem is that I lost my motivation to do reboot again because I believe I think either I enrage in porn or not I will not feel good and free until I have a relationship! you know, I am not a Yogi or Monk!

but anyway I know that porn is not an option in any manner! but I lost my vision and motivation, I want to reboot fully bu I don't know how!
 

qrayzHD

Active Member
Please don't feel like you have undone all your progress because you haven't, really not much has changed other then you reset your counter and you realized that a relapse isn't worth it.
 

Arya

Member
Porn temptation is like most powerful cheater, it will do anything and give you any reason to stay with it and not leave it, but if we are firm and don't care to what it says "WE CAN SUCCEED" I failed many times, although I already won a 90 days pornless period (almost!). but now I wana leave this harmful addiction for ever!
 

Arya

Member
I am at 15th day of my second try to do a good reboot now, it's been a though time in last days because of the the withdrawing symptoms, I believe I never can't be the powerful person I want to be unless I leave porn forever, and there is no doubt about this, there is no other options, either I leave it or I'll leave it!
 

Arya

Member
In my experience, if it's very difficult for you avoid both porn and masturbation at the same time, it's better you masturbate sometime when you feel heavy pressure, it's better to masturbate than building more pressure that leads you to porn!

although if you have ED and sexual weakens avoiding all sexual activity helps you a lot for sure to recover you health and power, but in my case I don't have those problems but porn addiction itself! I am mostly over energized than being exhausted!

every person's energy level is different according to the body and mind type, genetics, life style, diet, sports, meditation etc...
 
M

mtaha2015

Guest
masturbation is off course better than ejaculating to porn.
porn gives more higher kind of drug like experience.
sex itself too much is drug.
any thing which is too much is a kind of escape.

if you are too religious , you are escapist.
some other people use religion to make lots of big money without paying any taxes.
religion is uncertainty while money brings real ease and comfort in life.

 

Arya

Member
oh boy withdrawing symptoms really sucks! bu at least it is sign of progress! as it's said"you will never succeed until you turn your pain into your greatness!
 

Arya

Member
40 days! yeahhhhhhh
withdrawing symptoms are amazing! sometimes I feel good and at ease, then tomorrow a lot of emotions and thought overwhelming me. my question is: how long it will take maximum in worst case for symptoms to finish and leave us alone!
 

Arya

Member
Today I celebrate my 70th day of my Clean Reboot!  ;D ;D ;D there is a party in me right NOW!  :p
Wish You all the FREEDOM!
 

Arya

Member
There is think it's impossible, because we failed again and again and again, and we reach the place we think maybe there is no way! and we almost give up... but when we see there many others who did it! so we think if they can do it we can do it!

this is what happened for me too, when I saw many rebooters and people in these powerful helping group who did it, I found a new power in me to dot it... yes i tried and failed many times, event after months of endurance! many times I thought maybe this is impossible at least for me, maybe others were different that could do it! NO! these are all bullshit thoughts! don't pay attention to them! I found that all my previous failures were only steps to make me stronger and stronger to reach the final stage! SO today after 13 years of porn addiction! finally I reached my goal, it's 90 days that I am absolutely porn free and a new person! I want to express special appreciation to the Fightthenewdrug group, yourbrainonporn and Gary Wilson who is like my Guru in this path! and to Gabe for managing this amazing group! Love you all  :)

I am starting a 6 month goal today.  ;D


?If you want a thing bad enough to go out
and fight for it,
to work day and night for it,
to give up your time, your peace and your sleep for it?
if all that you dream and scheme is about it,
and life seems useless and worthless without it?
if you gladly sweat for it and fret for it and plan for it
and lose all your terror of the opposition for it?
if you simply go after that thing you want
with all of your capacity, strength and sagacity,
faith, hope and confidence and stern pertinacity?
if neither cold, poverty, famine, nor gout,
sickness nor pain, of body and brain,
can keep you away from the thing that you want?
if dogged and grim you beseech and beset it,
with the help of God, you will get it!?
---Les Brown
 

Arya

Member
I failed again even after 5 months of porn less life! can you believe it? I'll never give up! I'm starting again! I don't want to suffer from porn that's why I'll go on always!

Today I'm setting a 3 month goal again.
 
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