One day at a time

Timetoheal -- Don't be to hard on yourself. This is a journey and I have had several relapses in the past and have failed to completely quit PMO. I recently decided based on my journal post 30 days ago that I was completely defeated and deflated, but I dug into several resources that I have posted about that helped me. In context they are based on my faith but hopefully you can understand regardless of your position that you can do this. Start over, your covered in Grace, and move on and learn from your triggers and urges. We have all been there but the good news is we all are all here trying to be better men! GOD Bless you
Thank you for your kind works address it does help to know that I am not the only one who has stubbled on this journey to become free from porn. I have taken a lot of time to reflect and learn from my relapse and it proves this journey won’t be easy but it will be worth it. I continue to just take it one day at a time.
 
Sorry for your recent struggle, Time... But I like your attitude here, that it's another fresh start- just like each new day is for us.

For your count, it may be day 1, but don't dismiss the days prior that you abstained, that also counts toward your healing.
Thank you for your kind words. You are totally right I have abstained for longer then ever before. So that proves I can do this I just have to learn from my mistakes and get back on the horse so to speak.
 
I haven’t been on in awhile and i have been struggle with porn use again. I have done a lot of soul searching and think that I have a stronger urge then ever to beat this evil demon. The feeling of head fog and depression have set in again and it is not a place I want to waste my time. I need to get my life under control and beat this. I have rewatched some of the YBOP videos and it made me realize what I am doing is just feeding the evil beast in my head and I need to cut him off once and for all. Here to starting once again up the ladder to success. I have a clear picture of what triggered my relapse and need to focus harder on avoiding them. This place is a huge help to me and I wish you all success on your journeys as well
 
I am currently on day 4 without any p or m after my recent relapse and I am learning so much about myself and that I can do this. The ethers do creep in now and then but I snap myself out of it with thoughts of how it made me feeling watching p and also thinking of the life I want to build with the girl in my life. We have been together 2 years and I have never been able to cum during sex with her. It has brought me a lot of shame and although she has questioned it she had been patient with me. I have never been able to tell her the true reason why I am not able to cum. I am working up the courage to tell her it’s not easy but it would be a huge step for me to tell her the truth and that I want to become better then that. Sending positive vibes to all of you recovering or struggling to
 

guitar1968

Active Member
Good luck to you. It's a hard struggle for sure. Glad you decided to come back. This forum is helping me stay focused. Any time I get a serious urge, I come and read the journals. I love success stories, but I also love seeing people struggling just like me. Somehow it helps knowing there are others out there going through the same things.

You can do this!
 

Phineas 808

Well-Known Member
Congrats on day 4-5, Time!

Hoping the best for you and your girl. That's a difficult call, but it would give her understanding... It could also 'test' how understanding she will be of the 'imperfect you', the 'struggling you'...

My wife knows of my past struggles with all this, but I more or less keep my own (current, if any) struggles to myself..., but that's our [unfortunate] dynamics...

Regardless, do it first for yourself- and then, do it for her. It sounds like you got a great lady.
 
I am sick of the cycle I have been stuck in. So far I have made it to the two week mark before caving and going back to my old ways only to end up feeling down and defeated. It has been 4 days since I last pmo and this time I really want to make it off porn for good. I am tired of the vicious cycle that leaves me feeling down. It's time to start living again. I have started an exercise routine and I think that will give me something else to focus on. At this point I know what I need to do I just have to find my own strength and beat this once and for all.
 
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