Newman93
Member
I am 20 years old, I had been masturbating since I was about 10, and on porn since about 12.
A little while ago I decided I was borderline Asexual, after some internet research. I then decided to give up on masturbation and porn. Since then I have had some return of sexual functionality (morning erections, occasional arousal).
It was only recently I stumbled upon this site. I had never attributed my erectile dysfunction and loss of libido to porn addiction! I thought there was something wrong with me and it was eating me up inside. I was terrified that people would find out and judge me, and this has affected my confidence severely. It is good to now know that I am still a man and I just need to rewire my brain a little.
I was in serious denial for so long about my ED, scared that it was my fault and trying to blame anything else (alcohol, nerves, smoking, marijuana, subconscious homosexuality, Asexuality etc) After a little while without porn and masturbation I am starting to regain sexual functions. I am often waking up with an erection, I have a wet dream 1/2 times a month, and I sometimes feel arousal/attraction towards real life women.
I had started rebooting without knowing what I was doing, I just thought there was no point in having a sex life if it wasn't with real partners, and was tired of bitter thoughts whilst masturbating. I have only just stumbled upon this site and its information, which I have now consumed to great relief.
The worst part of my experience has been the feeling of 'dead penis' (it was such a relief to learn this term), and having to hear and join in with friends talking about sex and the like.
Thanks to this site, I have hope of regaining a sex life. Maybe I don't have to be alone forever. I gave up porn entirely about 1 month ago, having dipped in and out of it for about 2 months before this. I last masturbated 2 weeks ago (without visual stimuli) but I don't plan to do this again until recovery as it caused depression and might be counter-productive.
A little while ago I decided I was borderline Asexual, after some internet research. I then decided to give up on masturbation and porn. Since then I have had some return of sexual functionality (morning erections, occasional arousal).
It was only recently I stumbled upon this site. I had never attributed my erectile dysfunction and loss of libido to porn addiction! I thought there was something wrong with me and it was eating me up inside. I was terrified that people would find out and judge me, and this has affected my confidence severely. It is good to now know that I am still a man and I just need to rewire my brain a little.
I was in serious denial for so long about my ED, scared that it was my fault and trying to blame anything else (alcohol, nerves, smoking, marijuana, subconscious homosexuality, Asexuality etc) After a little while without porn and masturbation I am starting to regain sexual functions. I am often waking up with an erection, I have a wet dream 1/2 times a month, and I sometimes feel arousal/attraction towards real life women.
I had started rebooting without knowing what I was doing, I just thought there was no point in having a sex life if it wasn't with real partners, and was tired of bitter thoughts whilst masturbating. I have only just stumbled upon this site and its information, which I have now consumed to great relief.
The worst part of my experience has been the feeling of 'dead penis' (it was such a relief to learn this term), and having to hear and join in with friends talking about sex and the like.
Thanks to this site, I have hope of regaining a sex life. Maybe I don't have to be alone forever. I gave up porn entirely about 1 month ago, having dipped in and out of it for about 2 months before this. I last masturbated 2 weeks ago (without visual stimuli) but I don't plan to do this again until recovery as it caused depression and might be counter-productive.