It's been a couple of years since I posted here and during this time, I have continued to use porn (both movies and webcam sites) and I feel I need to write this down in order to address the issues. I am a father of two, holding down a professional job and have received counselling for this in the past.
However, I cannot seem to stop using these sites, either when I am alone during the day (I work in an office on my own) or late at night when my family are in bed. I have days where I can function well and get on with my job without any distractions and then have days where the thoughts are all consuming and I "act out".
I have tried the strategies discussed when I had counselling in the past (leaving my office and going for a walk, going to bed at the same time/before my partner) but this does not always work and is not always practical.
I thought I would return to this site and document my thoughts and feelings to see if this helps. Instead of accessing websites, I can access this site and write down my thoughts and feelings to see if the thoughts and desires to act out subsides.
I want to be free of this addiction and be free of the debt...
However, I cannot seem to stop using these sites, either when I am alone during the day (I work in an office on my own) or late at night when my family are in bed. I have days where I can function well and get on with my job without any distractions and then have days where the thoughts are all consuming and I "act out".
I have tried the strategies discussed when I had counselling in the past (leaving my office and going for a walk, going to bed at the same time/before my partner) but this does not always work and is not always practical.
I thought I would return to this site and document my thoughts and feelings to see if this helps. Instead of accessing websites, I can access this site and write down my thoughts and feelings to see if the thoughts and desires to act out subsides.
I want to be free of this addiction and be free of the debt...