Hello everyone. It has been a year since I first posted on rebootnation and I feel pretty embarrassed and ashamed to say I am still struggling with PMO. Despite the various methods I have employed, the accountability that I have set up, and the help that I have received, I still find myself crawling back to p frequently. I know everyone says that this journey is full of ups and downs but mine has mostly just been full of downs; my p addiction along with the severity of my PIED has worsened.
I made a pledge at the beginning of the journey to reshape my life completely but p has been a major obstacle in achieving this. I want to be genuinely happy again but every time after a relapse I feel so incredibly down its difficult to get back up again. To be completely honest, I feel so extremely tired and lethargic, as the past few months have constituted of the same exact monotonous pattern: abstain for a few weeks, relapse, abstain for a few more weeks, relapse, abstain for a few days, relapse. I'm tired of this and I feel pathetic.
I made a pledge at the beginning of the journey to reshape my life completely but p has been a major obstacle in achieving this. I want to be genuinely happy again but every time after a relapse I feel so incredibly down its difficult to get back up again. To be completely honest, I feel so extremely tired and lethargic, as the past few months have constituted of the same exact monotonous pattern: abstain for a few weeks, relapse, abstain for a few more weeks, relapse, abstain for a few days, relapse. I'm tired of this and I feel pathetic.