Hello,
Here is my story (I'm 31 years old now):
When I was 6-7 years old, I found about porn magazines and and porn movies (VHS) that my friends parents had and that we watched. Things didn't get better as I grew up with the fast infernet and all that free porn. Masturbated to fantasy until I got ADSL when I was 15. From this age I have watched porn almost every day, usually once, sometimes 3-4 times with orgasm (PMO).
I didn't try to have sex until I was 19 (because of porn, it gave me more satisfaction and stimuli than real girls), and I barely got it up. I tried to have sex 3-4 times with different girls - I mostly got the tip in before the erection completely disappeared.
About 3 years ago, I noticed that my erections with porn became weaker, I had to watch more specific scenes to even get it up. This scared me a lot, so I stopped watching porn, cold turkey. Also I noticed that I didn't have any nocturnal or morning wood. About 6 months later, after stopping watching porn, I meet the love of my life, a gorgeous girl with all of the qualities that I was looking for. I could not get it up and I had zero libido ofc. I then read about PIED and so on, tried Viagra and met with docs and psychotherapist and all had the same conclusion: it is psychological. Well none of the treatments they gave me helped.
The girl stayed with me for than 2 years. We tried to have sex a lot of times and she was very supporting. About 6 months ago we mutally ended the relationship.
Things I've tried:
- Tried to masturbate (w/wofantasy) once a week to restart the whole process. But I thought it just only made it worse, the penis got more limp after the MO. Have tried this sporadically during these 3 years. Maybe it was bad.
- Hard mode for 6 months last year. Didn't see any notable difference. Doing hard mode now since the end of July.
- Minimal erection (10-20 %) if trying oral or hand job from my previous GF. When we tried PIV it just went away. Condoms were even worse.
- Noticed that when previous GF stimulated the glans, especially with the hand, for example with oil, it was a bit painful/not comfortable.
Where am I now?
- No PMO for 3 years. Have tried to watch porn 3 times, to see if it worked, well it didn't, no erection.
- Still low libido/sex drive, ie. still flatline.
- Nocturnal and morning wood returned about 1 year ago. Lately the erections have been 90-100 %. Waking me up a lot of times.
- Wet dreams occurs 1-2 times a month. Have noticed that when I drink alcohol the same evening I often have WD.
- Hard to control fantasies in the morning/semi-awake mode or before sleeping. Better control during the day.
- Have had pelvic pain after orgasms (after WD and after masturbating) many years but it seems that these have disappeared, I haven't noticed any pain after orgasm during these 3 months.
- Noticed seminal leakage last year but have not had it for at least 6 months.
- Not touching my penis or scrotum, except when going to the toilet.
- Exercising have not been prioritized. But this changed a month ago. Now trying to do cardio, 30 min, 3 times a week.
- Eating healthy. Not smoking or using drugs. Drinking alcohol rarely/on occasion.
Please give me some advice on how to tacle this.
Here is my story (I'm 31 years old now):
When I was 6-7 years old, I found about porn magazines and and porn movies (VHS) that my friends parents had and that we watched. Things didn't get better as I grew up with the fast infernet and all that free porn. Masturbated to fantasy until I got ADSL when I was 15. From this age I have watched porn almost every day, usually once, sometimes 3-4 times with orgasm (PMO).
I didn't try to have sex until I was 19 (because of porn, it gave me more satisfaction and stimuli than real girls), and I barely got it up. I tried to have sex 3-4 times with different girls - I mostly got the tip in before the erection completely disappeared.
About 3 years ago, I noticed that my erections with porn became weaker, I had to watch more specific scenes to even get it up. This scared me a lot, so I stopped watching porn, cold turkey. Also I noticed that I didn't have any nocturnal or morning wood. About 6 months later, after stopping watching porn, I meet the love of my life, a gorgeous girl with all of the qualities that I was looking for. I could not get it up and I had zero libido ofc. I then read about PIED and so on, tried Viagra and met with docs and psychotherapist and all had the same conclusion: it is psychological. Well none of the treatments they gave me helped.
The girl stayed with me for than 2 years. We tried to have sex a lot of times and she was very supporting. About 6 months ago we mutally ended the relationship.
Things I've tried:
- Tried to masturbate (w/wofantasy) once a week to restart the whole process. But I thought it just only made it worse, the penis got more limp after the MO. Have tried this sporadically during these 3 years. Maybe it was bad.
- Hard mode for 6 months last year. Didn't see any notable difference. Doing hard mode now since the end of July.
- Minimal erection (10-20 %) if trying oral or hand job from my previous GF. When we tried PIV it just went away. Condoms were even worse.
- Noticed that when previous GF stimulated the glans, especially with the hand, for example with oil, it was a bit painful/not comfortable.
Where am I now?
- No PMO for 3 years. Have tried to watch porn 3 times, to see if it worked, well it didn't, no erection.
- Still low libido/sex drive, ie. still flatline.
- Nocturnal and morning wood returned about 1 year ago. Lately the erections have been 90-100 %. Waking me up a lot of times.
- Wet dreams occurs 1-2 times a month. Have noticed that when I drink alcohol the same evening I often have WD.
- Hard to control fantasies in the morning/semi-awake mode or before sleeping. Better control during the day.
- Have had pelvic pain after orgasms (after WD and after masturbating) many years but it seems that these have disappeared, I haven't noticed any pain after orgasm during these 3 months.
- Noticed seminal leakage last year but have not had it for at least 6 months.
- Not touching my penis or scrotum, except when going to the toilet.
- Exercising have not been prioritized. But this changed a month ago. Now trying to do cardio, 30 min, 3 times a week.
- Eating healthy. Not smoking or using drugs. Drinking alcohol rarely/on occasion.
Please give me some advice on how to tacle this.
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