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changing-mind

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So, after my last relapse I decided that I needed a fresh start. Hopefully this one will go better. There are some changes that I'm going to make though.

1. Last time I started off allowing myself to MO and not PMO. This time I'm going clean from the start.
2. I'm going to make it a rule that I post every day. Even if there is nothing to report I'll just talk about other stuff.
3. I'm going to keep a separate journal throughout the day to identify what my triggers are.
 
Innocence

Innocence

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Good luck on your new progress, just keep in mind if you think too much about nofap it may drive you crazy!
Source: http://legacy.rebootnation.org/index.php?topic=2065.0
 
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changing-mind

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Thanks. I think, though, that I was neglecting to use what I learned but I'll keep this in mind (or rather, I won't :D).
I found some great techniques but when the time came to use them I completely forgot about them.
 
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changing-mind

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Nothing happened today on the MO front. Felt tempted earlier but was alright after lunch.

In other news... There's girl. I've known her for a while and we both have a lot in common. I'm not sure whether to ask her out now or to finish my reboot first. She probably won't even be interested; she isn't really interested in relationships. I dunno.
 
Innocence

Innocence

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changing-mind said:
Nothing happened today on the MO front. Felt tempted earlier but was alright after lunch.

In other news... There's girl. I've known her for a while and we both have a lot in common. I'm not sure whether to ask her out now or to finish my reboot first. She probably won't even be interested; she isn't really interested in relationships. I dunno.
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Feel free to check this out!
http://yourbrainonporn.com/rebooting-with-a-partner

The topic isn't only about sex, give it a read.
I hope it will answer your questions :)
 
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changing-mind

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Relapsed again. The way it happened was so stupid as well; I thought it would be okay to try edging despite the  fact that I'd never done it before and didn't know how to. I think this needs to be added to the boundaries I set at the start of this thread: No Edging.
 
Innocence

Innocence

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I'm sorry to hear you relapsed, but it's not the end of the road!
Don't be upset with yourself, this will only cause frustration and we all know where that goes.

It's okay to fail, just give it your best to do it right this time!

Keep strong buddy!
 
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changing-mind

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Bit of a dull day today. Had urges but I distracted myself with the most noble of activities: putting sweet child of mine through every language on google translate. After about 5 languages I forgot completely about wanting to MO.
 
Innocence

Innocence

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Glad to see you could keep yourself occupied!
Try holding onto that :)
Don't let yourself get bored, do what ever you need to do.
Try working out when the urges are big.
 
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changing-mind

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I've updated my tracker to track mo and pmo seperately now and also reduced my initial goals because I found 30 days to be really distant.
 
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changing-mind

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Nothing to say, really. Kind of bored. Oh well, another day no PMO so I can't complain.
 
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changing-mind

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MO'd again. It's strange; I don't seem to have as big a problem watching P, but then I can't seem to keep my hands of myself which is surprising because I started both at the same time. Anyway, I think I set myself up for failure: sitting in my room doing nothing probably isn't a good idea for during my reboot.
 
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nofap97

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changing-mind said:
Over half way to no P goal!
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I think it was a good idea to change your goal to a shorter amount of days. I remember really good when I was just looking on counter and asking myself whether it has stopped or not, so I think a shorter goal will kind of boost you, and when you've finished, you'll feel the achievement.

changing-mind said:
MO'd again. It's strange; I don't seem to have as big a problem watching P, but then I can't seem to keep my hands of myself which is surprising because I started both at the same time. Anyway, I think I set myself up for failure: sitting in my room doing nothing probably isn't a good idea for during my reboot.
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Well, I think it's really a bad idea. I can tell you just as anyone would: Do something. E. g. start working out or so. What I did was starting to play Minecraft (should've started to work out probably  :p), and yeah, it helped.
But one problem with Computer games is, that you are on the computer, which let's you easily go to watch porn. I didn't, but that doesn't mean no one will.
I would recommend you - just as Innocence
Innocence said:
Don't let yourself get bored, do what ever you need to do.
Try working out when the urges are big.
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. It will help a lot!

And as always, stay strong! :)
 
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changing-mind

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MO'd again. I think I need to evaluate some stuff.
Whenever I get home from school, or even just throughout the day, I shut myself in my room. From now on I'm going to be stricter with myself because when I'm doing nothing good I start doing something bad. Hope everyone else is having more success than I am.
 
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changing-mind

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Okay, so about that girl who I was talking about. Today, because she is interested in steampunk, I showed her one of my steampunk miniatures. She seemed very enthusiastic about it so I'm wondering if her interest in "Seamus"(the miniature) to an interest in me. I think I'll get my reboot fully underway before I ask her out or anything.IIs this wise?
 
Innocence

Innocence

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changing-mind said:
Okay, so about that girl who I was talking about. Today, because she is interested in steampunk, I showed her one of my steampunk miniatures. She seemed very enthusiastic about it so I'm wondering if her interest in "Seamus"(the miniature) to an interest in me. I think I'll get my reboot fully underway before I ask her out or anything.IIs this wise?
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I'm glad you've encountered a girl whom you may be interested in.
With that I'd suggest you to read this: http://yourbrainonporn.com/rebooting-with-a-partner

My personal opinion: I think it can be great to have her on your side. It could help your brain to rewire to the normal state with a real person instead of your screen.
You just might want to consider letting her know about the whole reboot if things get serious between you two.

The best of luck buddy!
 
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changing-mind

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Guys, I want you to know that I really appreciate the support and advice that you're giving me. I know that I probably sound like a broken record, "Relapsed again...relapsed today...MOd today," but I know that things will get better and omeday I won't have to feel this guilt or shame. Sometimes, I wish that I could go back in time and slap myself but that wouldn't really solve anything. I probably would've still started to M and watch P. So my real wish is that I couldhave found this site earlier. I spent 2 years in hopelessness before this.

Would also like to say quickly that I'm going to find something to occupy myself with. I think I'll take up a new hobbybecause at the moment with miniature war gaming I'm just sitting in my room, alone.
 
Innocence

Innocence

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If you need some more motivation, I highly recommend reading the ybop eBook.

It's really full of knowledge and stories/blogs of other people.
I love to read it, especially when the urge is big.
 
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