SteP
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Hi,
my story is fairly typical. I came across porn when I was 12, and by age 14 I was already hooked. I was a loner in high school and I was bullied routinely, until I stood up for myself and began working out. I was a virgin until 20, when I lost my virginity to a prostitute, thinking that I'd be relieved, only to feel empty inside. Ironically, I then found my first girlfriend a few months later. It was in my early 20's (21? 22? It all feels so long ago...) when I realized that spending up to 4 hours every day on porn websites was not normal, so I tried to quit. And failed miserably. My longest streak in about 6 years was 50 days, and that was a long time ago. Nowadays a 7-day streak feels like an accomplishment.
I work from home nearly all the time, because I am part of a remote team. Because of that, there is no social aspect to my job (Teams calls where no one switches on their cameras cannot be called "social") and I end up rubbing one out every 2-3 days out of stress, frustration or boredom. Even when I don't, I just spend 30-60 minutes a day edging.
Porn does nothing for me anymore, but I feel like I can't help but watch it. I will graduate in 3 weeks and I want to build a proper streak to get there. That's my short term goal, then I will reassess.
my story is fairly typical. I came across porn when I was 12, and by age 14 I was already hooked. I was a loner in high school and I was bullied routinely, until I stood up for myself and began working out. I was a virgin until 20, when I lost my virginity to a prostitute, thinking that I'd be relieved, only to feel empty inside. Ironically, I then found my first girlfriend a few months later. It was in my early 20's (21? 22? It all feels so long ago...) when I realized that spending up to 4 hours every day on porn websites was not normal, so I tried to quit. And failed miserably. My longest streak in about 6 years was 50 days, and that was a long time ago. Nowadays a 7-day streak feels like an accomplishment.
I work from home nearly all the time, because I am part of a remote team. Because of that, there is no social aspect to my job (Teams calls where no one switches on their cameras cannot be called "social") and I end up rubbing one out every 2-3 days out of stress, frustration or boredom. Even when I don't, I just spend 30-60 minutes a day edging.
Porn does nothing for me anymore, but I feel like I can't help but watch it. I will graduate in 3 weeks and I want to build a proper streak to get there. That's my short term goal, then I will reassess.