Time to start stopping

dylank

Member
Day 54! I'm starting to forget the counting and even posting here!! So I guess that's a good thing. I'm really breaking the habit. The triggers are getring less and less. So even when I'm alone it's not about PMO. I am already going from "I'm a porn watcher who resists the urge" to "I'm not a person who looks at porn" which I think is one hell of a step. Guess I'm lucky that my brain and body responded quite fast, and I'm lucky to experience my sexuality on a healthy way (as a married man with a sex life).

Another funny thing, my sexuality is getting better. So with the spouse, it's better than ever. With others, it's better than ever: I don't crave any attention. I don't want anything from other women. So my 2nd addiction is easier to handle now, still going strong over there too! So win-win boys!!
 

dylank

Member
Day 71 I guess!
Wow, I'm not even counting anymore..
On normal time, when I'm doing stuff, PMO is really not on my mind anymore. Furthermore, when spending time alone. I'm not so triggered anymore. So, doing good. I notice that things with the spouse are great! One other thing I notice: I'm way less interested in spending time / talking / being a person to talk to / for others. As in, I'm just here with the wife, and the rest can fuck off! (not counting family and friends, i like them of course haha)
 

dylank

Member
Day 76.
Still havent done the PMO.
So haven't seen problems for now so I guess things are great. Still the sex drive in any type of form is always there and thinking back I just think that the male sex drive is sometimes just too much for us to handle. I know it's like a driving force to almost anything, but I would wish I could spend a day without spending brain energy on the subject. I mean, having sex with the wife or thinking about it is great and not a problem, bit how much time is spend having sex on your brain and how much time do you actually spend on having sex? ;)

Another thing on my mind is that a couple of days ago i wasnt really in the mood for sex and I was thinking about what it was when everything down there wont do what you want. So I guess when you got an episode of ED something happens in the brain, for me it's something like a combination of my brain being unable to relax and somehow all kinds of thoughts rushing by. Compared with a feeling that you want your body to react it causes a withdrawal from my side. It feels like when you cant sleep and you keep on thinking about not sleeping, thus you don't sleep.

Ok, sorry dudes, rambling on now. One last thing: got a professional massage, and got an accidental boner, whoops. but hey around here that's a good thing right? right guys? ;)
 
It feels like when you cant sleep and you keep on thinking about not sleeping, thus you don't sleep.
Definitely agree with this - that's what makes ED so difficult in general
It's self-fulfilling too - you're so nervous about it happening that of course it makes it happen
I've lived with that feeling since I was in college and it SUCKS. Never want to feel it again

76 days is amazing though - great progress. Keep it up brother! 💪
 
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