MarshDweller05
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Today I MO once and PMO w/instagram pics once. I was pretty happy to have gone 3 days without PMO or MO, I had overcomes some pretty serious urges, and used some different activities to find some dopamine and relaxation in the world.
In my thoughts to slip, I told myself, hey you just succeeded, now it doesn't matter if you just do it once.
My problem is that I do feel that P is really bad, but MO I haven't completelty committed to stopping. This is an issue becuase I can see, once I MO, then the brain feels happy for 10 minutes, then it wants more - and this means PMO.
So stopping the MO is critical. I need to be 100% committed to stop the MO on this journey. In the past I MO compulsivley. This was my gateway into this addiction and is a strong mood regulator. When seomthing happens, stress or boredom I get the huge urge, or when seeing a sexy lady, the huge urge.
I also need to figure out what my goal is and what my plan is. Obviously I need to do a strong reboot, 90 day no PMO. But again, I am slacking on the MO which leads to PMO.
I think shorter goals will be good. Like getting through 5 Days. Then 2 Days of the Weekend. Then another 5 or so. The weekend is difficult becuase I like to relax and chill. So instead of PMO or MO I am seeking healthy ways to chill. I am a big introvert in a way so enjoy some alone time, however this usually leads to PMO. So I can take the time in public, or change something about the alone time to break the pattern
Lots of thoughts, the more I go the more I see this is a total war, lol. at least at first.
In my thoughts to slip, I told myself, hey you just succeeded, now it doesn't matter if you just do it once.
My problem is that I do feel that P is really bad, but MO I haven't completelty committed to stopping. This is an issue becuase I can see, once I MO, then the brain feels happy for 10 minutes, then it wants more - and this means PMO.
So stopping the MO is critical. I need to be 100% committed to stop the MO on this journey. In the past I MO compulsivley. This was my gateway into this addiction and is a strong mood regulator. When seomthing happens, stress or boredom I get the huge urge, or when seeing a sexy lady, the huge urge.
I also need to figure out what my goal is and what my plan is. Obviously I need to do a strong reboot, 90 day no PMO. But again, I am slacking on the MO which leads to PMO.
I think shorter goals will be good. Like getting through 5 Days. Then 2 Days of the Weekend. Then another 5 or so. The weekend is difficult becuase I like to relax and chill. So instead of PMO or MO I am seeking healthy ways to chill. I am a big introvert in a way so enjoy some alone time, however this usually leads to PMO. So I can take the time in public, or change something about the alone time to break the pattern
Lots of thoughts, the more I go the more I see this is a total war, lol. at least at first.