Hi all,
I probably have similar stories to many of you, started with porn in my early teens (14-15) and didnt have sex well into my 25.
That first time of having sex set the stage for the rest of my adulthood, problem getting it up and keeping it up.
I've never had any issues with porn, or with getting blowjobs, but getting hard and staying hard to penetrate was always an issue for me.
Things started to degrage slowly which each wank session.
I had relationship during my 28-30th year, with who I could have regular sex, but as soon as I needed to put on a condom I would fail terribly.
Also switching positions was terrible and usually meant going limp.
Now I got married since a year ago, and the problems have been getting worse and worse.
I started to realise a pattern though. Everytime I would cut back on porn, I'd be able to have better erections.
But then I'd give in again to porn (al sneakily when she is not home), and my PIED would start again.
At the moment it is really bad, I dont even feel sexually aroused anymore by her as soon as I want to have sex with her.
It's like my brain is shutting down everything as soon as I make a move, but with porn I get and keep a rock hard erection.
The past few months have been horrible, we've had sex barely, and meanwhile my porn fetishes have grown disgusting and horrible.
I'm 100% convinced they are related.
The amount of time spent looking at porn the more exhausted my sexual-reward system is at the end of the day.
Same for the material, the more shocking it is, the more exhausted my reward system is. I remember I used to get sick when I saw anal sex for the first time, but nowadays I'm jacking off to the darkest corners of the internet.
When you combine those two, at the end of the day my brain would be just completely fried and the prospects of regular sex didn't do anything for me
I've tried reboot over the past few years, and I managed to get a few time to 14-30 days of porn free life.
I remember how awesome I felt during those days, full of energy and self confidence.
Also great erections. As soon as porn came back, the PIED also returned, and the more disgusting the porn, the worse my PIED got.
Yesterday I made a decision after the so manyth time that I wacked to disgusting shit.
Full reboot. CTRLALTDEL. Never again.
I've never done a blog like this before so hopefully this will help me to stay the course and improve my life, my marriage, my sex life, and my sense of self-worth.
I probably have similar stories to many of you, started with porn in my early teens (14-15) and didnt have sex well into my 25.
That first time of having sex set the stage for the rest of my adulthood, problem getting it up and keeping it up.
I've never had any issues with porn, or with getting blowjobs, but getting hard and staying hard to penetrate was always an issue for me.
Things started to degrage slowly which each wank session.
I had relationship during my 28-30th year, with who I could have regular sex, but as soon as I needed to put on a condom I would fail terribly.
Also switching positions was terrible and usually meant going limp.
Now I got married since a year ago, and the problems have been getting worse and worse.
I started to realise a pattern though. Everytime I would cut back on porn, I'd be able to have better erections.
But then I'd give in again to porn (al sneakily when she is not home), and my PIED would start again.
At the moment it is really bad, I dont even feel sexually aroused anymore by her as soon as I want to have sex with her.
It's like my brain is shutting down everything as soon as I make a move, but with porn I get and keep a rock hard erection.
The past few months have been horrible, we've had sex barely, and meanwhile my porn fetishes have grown disgusting and horrible.
I'm 100% convinced they are related.
The amount of time spent looking at porn the more exhausted my sexual-reward system is at the end of the day.
Same for the material, the more shocking it is, the more exhausted my reward system is. I remember I used to get sick when I saw anal sex for the first time, but nowadays I'm jacking off to the darkest corners of the internet.
When you combine those two, at the end of the day my brain would be just completely fried and the prospects of regular sex didn't do anything for me
I've tried reboot over the past few years, and I managed to get a few time to 14-30 days of porn free life.
I remember how awesome I felt during those days, full of energy and self confidence.
Also great erections. As soon as porn came back, the PIED also returned, and the more disgusting the porn, the worse my PIED got.
Yesterday I made a decision after the so manyth time that I wacked to disgusting shit.
Full reboot. CTRLALTDEL. Never again.
I've never done a blog like this before so hopefully this will help me to stay the course and improve my life, my marriage, my sex life, and my sense of self-worth.
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