Hey all... my name is Mike.. I moved to Arizona back in 2020, and broke up with my current ex in December 2020. It's just me and my 10 1/2 year old son out here. I haven't been in any kind of meaningful romantic relationship since then. Fast forward a little bit, April 2021, I hooked up with a girl, all good. No real problems. Around that same time, I started hitting up my weed pen at night (great for great sleep, and it also enhances sexual feelings). So, ever since I started doing my weed pen, I've been taking care of myself around 2-3 times a day, all supplemented by porn. Every. Single. Day. Finally, fast forward to today. I met a really awesome girl back in November 2021. I was still watching the porn and getting off 2-3 times a day, not even thinking it was any kind of big deal. Why? Because I mean, I was turned on, everything appeared to work 1000% well. Well, the other night, last Friday, we finally took that next step. But, as you could imagine... I didn't get like super turned on at all. She thought it was her. I assured her it wasn't. She's a nurse and brought up the fact that maybe it's because I have been getting off so many times a day (I was transparent with her about that). So, nothing happened except oral. Even then, I didn't get off. I said hang on, I ran out to my car, grabbed my weed pen, took a few hits, and went back, thinking that would help. Nope.
I started doing research the day after (Saturday, as in a couple days ago). I learned a lot about PIED. Since she is so important to me, I took immediate, drastic steps.
And a couple interesting things here.
Thanks for reading!
I started doing research the day after (Saturday, as in a couple days ago). I learned a lot about PIED. Since she is so important to me, I took immediate, drastic steps.
- I threw my weed pen out.
- I deleted all of my go-to bookmarks on Pornhub.
- Understanding that this is all (mostly) psychological, I did a fair amount of research on diet and made a decision to start eating extremely clean.
- I went to my doctor to rule anything else out. He prescribed me Tadalafil 10mg just in the event that her and hang out again but it's during my recovery process.
- I looked into and will start meditating.
And a couple interesting things here.
- I had 104 bookmarks on Pornhub. Since I deleted them and started making these changes, I have had literally zero desire to go back to that. I assume it's because I'm very much dedicated to getting to a better spot with this woman I love so much.
- I'll still get off, but not to anything. I just imagine her on top of me, it only takes 3-5 minutes.
- I can get hard with thoughts of her alone. Like, I'll be at my computer, at work, and just think of her, and BAM. It happens.
Thanks for reading!
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