Joseph porter
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The title says it all. A relapse one too many. 8 yes under the belt. 8yrs down the drain. Shall I continue troubling myself locked in a cage and feeling suffocated by this addiction? Tbh I don't know how long and I can't deduce the future but what I can predict is that I'm not staying down. Yes... my evil hijacker( so I call him) has truly enjoyed being in the driver seat for and has taken away from me many moments I could ever seem to taste at a life of freedom. He's truly happy but at what cost? My happiness? My freedom, self esteem, confidence, respect towards the other gender.
It has created this delusion of what sex is supposed to be and how its supposed to be performed when deep down I know that's never the case and with that in mind, I still seem to ever draw back. I know this journey's not going to be easy and it's going to take the most I've put in if I'm going to take back my life kick my hijacker to the curb.
Here that hijacker. Enough is enough. You think u have been controlling my life? And that's only coz I let you and now its time I look you into your eye and say. IM TAKING BACK MY LIFE!!! And nothing you or anyone will do to stop me
It has created this delusion of what sex is supposed to be and how its supposed to be performed when deep down I know that's never the case and with that in mind, I still seem to ever draw back. I know this journey's not going to be easy and it's going to take the most I've put in if I'm going to take back my life kick my hijacker to the curb.
Here that hijacker. Enough is enough. You think u have been controlling my life? And that's only coz I let you and now its time I look you into your eye and say. IM TAKING BACK MY LIFE!!! And nothing you or anyone will do to stop me