I want to succeed at this as bad as I want to breathe

[Warhawk]

Day 22

Today I'm back to 20 lbs down since December. I have been teetering for a bit, and went up a bit in weight since my last vacation in February, but I've gotten back on track and hit the 20 lb lost mark again this morning. I started intermittent fasting in December, cut down on drinking alcohol significantly, and have been more active lately. While I briefly touched this number about 5 weeks back, I can actually see it in my body and face now, and feel like this isn't just the scale being in my favor today .

My next goal is to drop 2 more pounds on the scale so I'm at a good round number, and stay there or lower for at least a week so I know it's consistent, but ultimately I'd like to lose right around 10 more to be happy, so that's my longer term goal. According to most bmi calculators, I should be about 20 lbs less than I am now to get out of the "overweight" range, but I am tall and carry some decent leg muscle, so I think my current goal is sufficent.

It's a good day overall for me today. Work is going well, and the weather is great. Going to get outside again this afternoon for another good walk.

 

[Warhawk]

Day 23

Kinda feeling out of it today if I'm honest. It's been quiet at work, and I'm finding it difficult to find something to do. Not that I couldn't do SOMETHING, I just don't have anything that has an immediate need, and I'm finding myself in a bit of a slump today. Going to try to get my head out of it, and see if I can find a way to get into the groove of something.

Frankly, I'm used to total chaos at all times, and that's where I thrive. I do well when I'm overloaded and pressed for time. It's almost my signature at the office to be able to walk through fire to get the big issues handled with my teams and meet crippling deadlines, but when I have dull days or weeks, I seem to struggle internally to motivate myself to pick at the little things, and it's something I really would like to be much better about.

 

[Androg]

Good insight. When your life starts to "flow" it can feel strange at first,

 

[Warhawk]

Day 24

Just checking in. It's Friday. All is well.

 

[Warhawk]

Day 26

Great weekend. Got some good stuff done for the house, and had an awesome day with some really close friends today. My whole body is sore from being active all last week and this weekend too, but that's ok. Ready to cap the night and get to my Monday in the AM.

 

[Warhawk]

Day 27

Slept so freaking hard last night. I had vivid dreams all night where I was trying to run, but couldn't move fast, which are likely because my legs are sore. My whole body is still sore, but not in an awful way. I have back problems, but this is a muscle sore, not spine and bone sore, so I'll take it. It actually feels good to feel like I've gotten some proper use out of my body. Decided to not hit a hike or walk today so I can let my muscles rest, but will likely get one in tomorrow. I have a particular steep incline I hit last week that really took it out of me, and I intend to hit it again once more this week.

Not much else going on otherwise. It was a good Monday overall, and I have a busy Tuesday ahead of me tomorrow.

 

[Daybyday1988]

Day 27

Slept so freaking hard last night. I had vivid dreams all night where I was trying to run, but couldn't move fast, which are likely because my legs are sore. My whole body is still sore, but not in an awful way. I have back problems, but this is a muscle sore, not spine and bone sore, so I'll take it. It actually feels good to feel like I've gotten some proper use out of my body. Decided to not hit a hike or walk today so I can let my muscles rest, but will likely get one in tomorrow. I have a particular steep incline I hit last week that really took it out of me, and I intend to hit it again once more this week.

Not much else going on otherwise. It was a good Monday overall, and I have a busy Tuesday ahead of me tomorrow.

That's great buddy, staying active is super important for overall health but also for P recovery. I read on a P recovery website that there was a study on dopamine receptors that was conducted in recovering meth addicts. Half of them vigorously exercised while the other half didn't. The result was the exercise group regained dopamine receptor density at a much fast rate .

 

[Warhawk]

I believe that. I've been trying my best by walking and hiking. I've tried the gym a few times, and it's great short term, but because of my degenerative disc condition, I always end up hitting a wall and end up in pain for months, which sets me back all over again. I've learned that I have to be extra cautious in my exercise choices. Walking and hiking seems to do ok for me though, so I've been trying to keep at it. The weather has been great too, so it's been easy to get outside and stay active this time of year.

Day 28

 

[Androg]

Many back-strengthening exercises can be done outside.

 

[Daybyday1988]

I believe that. I've been trying my best by walking and hiking. I've tried the gym a few times, and it's great short term, but because of my degenerative disc condition, I always end up hitting a wall and end up in pain for months, which sets me back all over again. I've learned that I have to be extra cautious in my exercise choices. Walking and hiking seems to do ok for me though, so I've been trying to keep at it. The weather has been great too, so it's been easy to get outside and stay active this time of year.

Day 28

I'm sure swimming would be a great option too as there is very little pressure on the joints. It is also a sick cardio workout

 

[Warhawk]

@Androg true that! I have been trying to explore what I can. I'm pretty limited, though. I live a normal life nowadays because I'm cautious, but for a period of time years ago, I thought I was going to lose my ability to walk altogether it was so bad. Still, I try to experiment with different activities to see what i can get away with.

@Daybyday1988 I love swimming! I'm in the city, and don't have a pool, but every time I go to the ocean or lake I love to swim all day since it doesn't hurt me and is great exercise. Some day I'd love to install one at the house. Definitely a long term goal of ours.

 

[Daybyday1988]

@Androg true that! I have been trying to explore what I can. I'm pretty limited, though. I live a normal life nowadays because I'm cautious, but for a period of time years ago, I thought I was going to lose my ability to walk altogether it was so bad. Still, I try to experiment with different activities to see what i can get away with.

@Daybyday1988 I love swimming! I'm in the city, and don't have a pool, but every time I go to the ocean or lake I love to swim all day since it doesn't hurt me and is great exercise. Some day I'd love to install one at the house. Definitely a long term goal of ours.

If you're serious about swimming there may be a pool at a gym nearby to you. I'm in the boston area and while it might be tough to find commercial gyms that have pools, there's usually a YMCA or similar that you can join. Just a thought. Im lucky that i can work out at home but if I had degenerative disc disease I'd have to find something else too

 

[Warhawk]

Day 29

I started getting morning woods about two and a half months ago. This was really a surprise to me, as I don't think I've had them since I was in my teens, because I'd been abusing porn for so long. They started off intermittent, but now I'm noticing they are getting more and more common and firmer. I'm finding myself waiting out wood for a while just about every morning just to be able to take a pee when I wake up. None of this is an inconvenience to me, though. I just thought it was worth noting as I kinda got a kick out of it this morning, particularly because even after really starting to take rebooting serious, it took a good while for these to start occurring on any level. I honestly thought I wasn't going to get morning wood again for the rest of my life.

Otherwise, the day is good. A little work stress, but I can handle it. Hit a good walk yesterday, and hitting another today. The hope is to hit my stressful incline hike tomorrow and see if I do better than I did last week.

 

[Daybyday1988]

Day 29

I started getting morning woods about two and a half months ago. This was really a surprise to me, as I don't think I've had them since I was in my teens, because I'd been abusing porn for so long. They started off intermittent, but now I'm noticing they are getting more and more common and firmer. I'm finding myself waiting out wood for a while just about every morning just to be able to take a pee when I wake up. None of this is an inconvenience to me, though. I just thought it was worth noting as I kinda got a kick out of it this morning, particularly because even after really starting to take rebooting serious, it took a good while for these to start occurring on any level. I honestly thought I wasn't going to get morning wood again for the rest of my life.

Otherwise, the day is good. A little work stress, but I can handle it. Hit a good walk yesterday, and hitting another today. The hope is to hit my stressful incline hike tomorrow and see if I do better than I did last week.

its funny you mention morning wood. i had one this morning (im almost 4 months into no pmo and a nearly 14 year addiction) and really havent had them since i was a teen either. Definitely a welcomed minor inconvenience!

 

[Warhawk]

Day 30

Hit the weight loss goal I've been trying to hit for a bit. I know weights fluctuate a bit, and it's only a few pounds lower than a week ago, but I haven't seen this number in a long time, so I'm stoked about it. Hoping to keep the momentum going to my next goal.

For now, I'm just trying to just keep doing what I'm doing. Eating healthy, drinking far less, sleeping well, and exercising regularly. If I keep these up, the numbers should continue in my favor. I certainly feel great lately.

 

[Blondie]

That is great news @Warhawk88.

Keep it up!

 

[Warhawk]

Day 31

Just checking in. Ready for the weekend. It's already looking like another busy one.

 

[Warhawk]

Day 34

What a great weekend! Spent some great time with friends, then spent great time with my girl. We did some great hiking and walking, had some good sex, had some good discussions, and just had a great time overall. It was one of those weekends where, when people at the office ask "How was your weekend" I don't reply with "good" or "ok" I reply with "It was awesome!" and I love that.

We've been hiking and walking nearly every day too, which has been great. I've been trying to walk and hike a lot more the past two years, and I have ups and downs where I go inactive on it, but I'm in the groove of it now. With the recent weight loss, plus the consistent activity, my leg muscles are getting serious. After a good hike, they look ripped, unlike they've ever looked before. It's actually really wild looking down and seeing all the new muscle and definition and realizing it's the results of my efforts. To add, the days after I really push myself, I am feeling super horny, but not in a desperate way. I'm just getting erections much easier and firmer, including some very firm morning woods.

I also got some reading in yesterday, which is nice. I don't read as much as I'd like to, at least not formally. I read a ton online, and am always seeking knowledge, but rarely sit down with a physical book. I had a book that was recommended to me by work, and I read it yesterday, and was able to sit down and take the whole thing in. It always reminds me that I should really read more often than I do, so I'm going to make a better effort on that.

On my Monday grind today, and feeling recharged today, for sure. I have to be up super early tomorrow, so I'm going to do my best to get to bed early as I can today so I can try to keep this energy rolling.

 

[Warhawk]

Day 35

Checking in. A bit tired today. Didn't get as much sleep as I'd hoped for, but it could be worse. I did do some reading before bed, though, and that was actually pretty nice. Otherwise, despite being a bit tired, the day is going well.

 

[Daybyday1988]

Day 35

Checking in. A bit tired today. Didn't get as much sleep as I'd hoped for, but it could be worse. I did do some reading before bed, though, and that was actually pretty nice. Otherwise, despite being a bit tired, the day is going well.

glad to hear it buddy. Reading can be an incredibly useful past time and a good way to wind down before bed