Tiredofmylies
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Well, it happened. Total reset, back to day one. It started with me thinking that I should MO to clear my head. I've read that it's a bad idea, but I guess I needed to learn for myself. It seemed to work, I had a brief reprieve from the fantasies in my head. I was worried I would give in, so I just thought that I would MO and clear my head again. It did not work out that way. Instead, I had a total relapse. As I suspected, back into the scary things that made me serious about quitting in the first place.
This sucks. Why do I do this to myself? I just want to be fixed. Why do I do these terrible things? God help me. I want to be better.
This sucks. Why do I do this to myself? I just want to be fixed. Why do I do these terrible things? God help me. I want to be better.