Insight.2
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No Porn : 32 days,
No M/O : 25 days
Last share was about feeling alive again, for the first time in... forever.
This share is now about... stillness, lack of evolution, grayness, absolute boredom - the very opposite of what I experienced for a couple of seconds (a marvelous experience) and that I shared with my last post.
Time. Trickles. So. Slow. Now.
Progress is just not apparent in these days. Seems like I've been crossing a scorching desert at a turtle's pace, without making progress really.
Still, I'm holding pretty strong with the no peeking at dangerous material. I've accidentally encountered a couple of triggers, but I manage to not let myself become too enthralled by the sight. I have not mentioned it yet, but I think I am in a flatline phase. So while that makes it easier with the urges to M/O or to even watch Porn, on the other hand the very bland reality that I've been experiencing makes me yearn for something... better (even just a tad bit exciting or satisfying! Something at least!! You know...) but I think I understand better what is happening to me than with my previous attempts. Tomorrow will be 33 && 26. Keep going, H. Keep going and you will feel alive again.
- H
No M/O : 25 days
Last share was about feeling alive again, for the first time in... forever.
This share is now about... stillness, lack of evolution, grayness, absolute boredom - the very opposite of what I experienced for a couple of seconds (a marvelous experience) and that I shared with my last post.
Time. Trickles. So. Slow. Now.
Progress is just not apparent in these days. Seems like I've been crossing a scorching desert at a turtle's pace, without making progress really.
Still, I'm holding pretty strong with the no peeking at dangerous material. I've accidentally encountered a couple of triggers, but I manage to not let myself become too enthralled by the sight. I have not mentioned it yet, but I think I am in a flatline phase. So while that makes it easier with the urges to M/O or to even watch Porn, on the other hand the very bland reality that I've been experiencing makes me yearn for something... better (even just a tad bit exciting or satisfying! Something at least!! You know...) but I think I understand better what is happening to me than with my previous attempts. Tomorrow will be 33 && 26. Keep going, H. Keep going and you will feel alive again.
- H
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