HesGotProblem
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Hi all. Ok so I've been using porn my whole adult life. I'm about 40 so easily 25 years or more. I grew up with limited porn available, mostly magazines my dad had hidden. As soon as I had the internet that was it, in my teens even when in relationships I would regularly watch and save porn. If I didn't have sex in a day I would find time or plan to watch porn.
I'd love to say more recently but over the past ten years the porn I've watched has become more and more extreme, in almost any porn genre. Over the last year or so I found some forums which showed me actual teens (so underage for porn), and I started to save that content too. My problem seems to of gotten worse as I'm truly ashamed to say I also saved some extremely questionable videos too.
Skip to my current relationship where my fiancee (I recently proposed) has seen some porn on my computer, and while I have been out has opened my pc and seen my whole collection.
She hasn't decided what to do, I wouldn't blame her if she shamed me, split up, etc.
To be honest I could of done a better job of hiding things but in a weird way I'm also glad someone knows. I really do want to change, for my own sanity I have shredded my hard drives and been frank and honest with my partner. Even if this is the end of my relationship, I HAVE to change. I'm ashamed of myself daily and I'm very much ruining my life...
Any immediate suggestions for resources in the Uk I'd be really grateful. I'd like to be able to talk freely on here, so honest support and feedback would be really welcome x
I'd love to say more recently but over the past ten years the porn I've watched has become more and more extreme, in almost any porn genre. Over the last year or so I found some forums which showed me actual teens (so underage for porn), and I started to save that content too. My problem seems to of gotten worse as I'm truly ashamed to say I also saved some extremely questionable videos too.
Skip to my current relationship where my fiancee (I recently proposed) has seen some porn on my computer, and while I have been out has opened my pc and seen my whole collection.
She hasn't decided what to do, I wouldn't blame her if she shamed me, split up, etc.
To be honest I could of done a better job of hiding things but in a weird way I'm also glad someone knows. I really do want to change, for my own sanity I have shredded my hard drives and been frank and honest with my partner. Even if this is the end of my relationship, I HAVE to change. I'm ashamed of myself daily and I'm very much ruining my life...
Any immediate suggestions for resources in the Uk I'd be really grateful. I'd like to be able to talk freely on here, so honest support and feedback would be really welcome x