TryingHarder
Well-Known Member
According to my calculations, I am now 6 months free of PMO.
This beats my previous clean streak of 5 months, so I'm feeling good. However, I'm certainly not out of the woods yet.
Many of you are wondering "how do other people do it? Why can't I quit?"
There's no single answer for those questions. For me, it really boiled down to old fashioned willpower and discipline. Every day I tell myself that I will never look at porn again, no matter what. Instead of responding to the siren call of porn, I conjure up the grotesque and disturbing image of me fapping in front of my computer. I remind myself, that at age 53, I more or less have only one more chance to get clean and stay clean.
I'm less concerned about the quality and frequency of my erections as I am about freeing my mind from the tangled world of porn and weird sexual thoughts that are really depression and mental illness speaking instead of my libido.
So I'm still struggling, but after 25 years of a porn addiction, I'm headed in the right direction.
Stay strong and stay clean, everyone. Do whatever it takes to bust up your usual routines and habits that lead you back to porn.
This beats my previous clean streak of 5 months, so I'm feeling good. However, I'm certainly not out of the woods yet.
Many of you are wondering "how do other people do it? Why can't I quit?"
There's no single answer for those questions. For me, it really boiled down to old fashioned willpower and discipline. Every day I tell myself that I will never look at porn again, no matter what. Instead of responding to the siren call of porn, I conjure up the grotesque and disturbing image of me fapping in front of my computer. I remind myself, that at age 53, I more or less have only one more chance to get clean and stay clean.
I'm less concerned about the quality and frequency of my erections as I am about freeing my mind from the tangled world of porn and weird sexual thoughts that are really depression and mental illness speaking instead of my libido.
So I'm still struggling, but after 25 years of a porn addiction, I'm headed in the right direction.
Stay strong and stay clean, everyone. Do whatever it takes to bust up your usual routines and habits that lead you back to porn.