hey buddy, i would wager to say, a 40 year addiction is going to require a pretty substantial reboot as that is one of the longest addiction times ive ever heard of and there seems to be a correlation with amount of time addicted vs. recovery time. Today marks 4 months clean after a near 15 year addiction for me and what made me successful this time was really one thing: accountability.
i have Covenant Eyes blocking software on all my devices so that I cant access any explicit material. Any websites that are not considered porn but that are still dangerous for me (such as dating ads etc) are also blocked using their software and I have an accountability partner that i met right here on RN that gets detailed reports of my search history every day along with screenshots from all my devices. I highly recommend this type of thing as in my opinion and my own experience it is very unlikely that you will succeed on your own, at first. The Prefrontal Cortex (A decision making, willpower part of the brain) is simply too weak in addicts to use pure will-power alone, so having help and support from an accountability partner is pretty much necessary. if you're interested, check it out here for a 14 day free trial: https://covenanteyes.com/refer-a-friend/?refer_a_friend=u1465547
its about $15 a month or less if you buy a year subscription but i wouldnt let that deter you since you already lost 100k from your P addiction as you claim! crazy how it messes our brains up. I know i couldnt break free without help because i tried everything else and it didnt work. Groups, seminars, therapy etc. Interesting you mention God as well, Covenant Eyes is a Christian Company (as far as i know) and I am a Christian myself.
There is something unique about the fact that you are 1) nearly unable to access explicit material from your devices without generating an uninstall code (which you can give your AP access to control) and 2) that whatever you search for on your internet accessible devices is going to be shown to your AP. This in essence puts another persons eyes on your stuff and you are less likely to PMO. think about it, before you search for some messed up stuff and masturbate on a napkin in your bedroom, if you knew that a friend or family member was going to see that same thing, would that effect whether you masturbate or not? i wager yes.
If you need an accountability partner, ill be happy to help you and you can direct message me on here and even be your AP if you need. P addiction is really really awful but you can have freedom my friend. God bless,