Hey all, sorry for not writing, have been in the UK for the past week visiting family, extremely busy settling and working on myself a little and in my business. Been feeling good in myself after finally getting to talk to my family a little about what is going on in my life, good news I have there full support, have not been having any urges or temptations for any of the stupid shit I was into for many months. The only negative is that for some weeks I believed myself and my wife where getting somewhere in our relationship but for some reason she decided yesterday to tell me that she is finding it very hard to trust anything I say or am doing to better myself. I really want to kill the old version of me and begin the new version of me, the one that overcomes this crap and believes in himself, loves himself, and can be someone proud of. But after my wife's message to be it kind of knocked me back in my own self confidence. I just feel very empty again and knowing she has this huge distrust in me breaks my heart.