Long story short went 104 days for the first time of beating 90 days then decided to fap. Tablet was next too me and one thing led to another...watched 2 minutes worth and finished.
I was furious at my self. I could have just stopped and walked away but didnt.
I was freaking out but here are realizations I've come too. I wasnt that interested. Its easy to slip up. It was 2 minutes not 2 hours could have been worse (doesnt excuse it) My 104 days have not gone too waste. This was a set back but its not the end of the world. I just need to pick up and keep moving. I need too stop thinking in days. I gave up porn and didnt want any of it but let a trigger get me and just grabbed it. It shouldn't be another 90 days, it should be about moving forward.
Not sure if this sets me back a ton....
Just needed to get that off my chest. Any advice appreciated.
P.S. I also didnt relapse into binging or wanting to watch again today as I was too mad and I think that is stride in the right direction
I was furious at my self. I could have just stopped and walked away but didnt.
I was freaking out but here are realizations I've come too. I wasnt that interested. Its easy to slip up. It was 2 minutes not 2 hours could have been worse (doesnt excuse it) My 104 days have not gone too waste. This was a set back but its not the end of the world. I just need to pick up and keep moving. I need too stop thinking in days. I gave up porn and didnt want any of it but let a trigger get me and just grabbed it. It shouldn't be another 90 days, it should be about moving forward.
Not sure if this sets me back a ton....
Just needed to get that off my chest. Any advice appreciated.
P.S. I also didnt relapse into binging or wanting to watch again today as I was too mad and I think that is stride in the right direction