AlexanderXXVI
Member
Hi everyone, this is my shamefull history...
It all began when I saw softcore porn at my television late at night, after that I started searching for naked girls at google images and you guys know what happened next, I started watching hardcore porn, public sex and a lot of stupid stuff. When I became 15 I realised how stupid it was wanking off to a bunch of damn pixels, I been struggling since then but I cant stop this bullshit.
Thanks to porn I had OCD problems I couldnt concentrate at school properly because I was constantly thinking of porn, I started hitting the walls and screaming I just wanted to stop this, so I went to the Hospital and they treated me with some pills that helped me to recover almost in a week.
After 2 months without porn I felt again for it I starting watching porn like before but I was more aggresive than before, I started looking the girls as tools and I though I was getting crazy.
I started my last year of school and I made my PMO session just 1 day per week, I was having excellent grades at my school, I was the 1th place but I relapsed again on this shitty addiction, I was just thinking of porn and a bunch of lustfull stuff. I see how my friends got their girlfriends and all. I consider myself a nice guy, I was known at school but, I couldnt kept a conversation with a girl. I feel like a worthless trash I try very hard everyday to stop this. In the end I lost my first place and became 4th place because of my porn addiction.
Next year (2015) Im going to start studying medicine and I know I cant have this lust when Im treating a woman or watching a dead corpse please guys what should I do, I just want to have my mind clean and try to help my country, I dont want this addiction to absolutely destroy my life, so thats why Im searching for a spark of hope..
PD: English is not my native lenguage, so pardon me for my horrible grammar.
It all began when I saw softcore porn at my television late at night, after that I started searching for naked girls at google images and you guys know what happened next, I started watching hardcore porn, public sex and a lot of stupid stuff. When I became 15 I realised how stupid it was wanking off to a bunch of damn pixels, I been struggling since then but I cant stop this bullshit.
Thanks to porn I had OCD problems I couldnt concentrate at school properly because I was constantly thinking of porn, I started hitting the walls and screaming I just wanted to stop this, so I went to the Hospital and they treated me with some pills that helped me to recover almost in a week.
After 2 months without porn I felt again for it I starting watching porn like before but I was more aggresive than before, I started looking the girls as tools and I though I was getting crazy.
I started my last year of school and I made my PMO session just 1 day per week, I was having excellent grades at my school, I was the 1th place but I relapsed again on this shitty addiction, I was just thinking of porn and a bunch of lustfull stuff. I see how my friends got their girlfriends and all. I consider myself a nice guy, I was known at school but, I couldnt kept a conversation with a girl. I feel like a worthless trash I try very hard everyday to stop this. In the end I lost my first place and became 4th place because of my porn addiction.
Next year (2015) Im going to start studying medicine and I know I cant have this lust when Im treating a woman or watching a dead corpse please guys what should I do, I just want to have my mind clean and try to help my country, I dont want this addiction to absolutely destroy my life, so thats why Im searching for a spark of hope..
PD: English is not my native lenguage, so pardon me for my horrible grammar.