Jkkk,
Thank you for those nice words. Its true what you say about not having anything to lose. The only thing is going through rejections and being okay with that. I have to work on this!
Update:
I have been quite busy lately with life and work so I didn't find the the time to write here much. I have decided to extend my no-MO to 15 days because that's how long it takes (I read somewhere) to "reset" the libido. Since I have a few episodes of binging in the past, I would like to get a clean slate.
Its really true what they say about focusing about life and using one's time. It removes my need to MO actually. I feel satisfied with seeing people and doing things I like, and at the end of the day the urge to MO is not there, or if it is it is very mild and easily dispelled.
One thing which I noticed more and more lately is the social awkwardness which is a little annoying. I think it might be caused by actually wanting to be social and seeing I am quite rusty. Close friends are beginning to be mostly natural, but around pretty girls I still feel like Bambi on ice
On the good note, I am having a lot more fun with ordinary things and my urges for eating, video games and such has seriously decreased.
I would like to start therapy soon but going to a private one will cost too much and I am relying on the health care system to deem me "bad enough" to get into the government paid alternative. We will see how it goes... meeting doctor on 22nd of August.
That's all!
Thank you for those nice words. Its true what you say about not having anything to lose. The only thing is going through rejections and being okay with that. I have to work on this!
Update:
I have been quite busy lately with life and work so I didn't find the the time to write here much. I have decided to extend my no-MO to 15 days because that's how long it takes (I read somewhere) to "reset" the libido. Since I have a few episodes of binging in the past, I would like to get a clean slate.
Its really true what they say about focusing about life and using one's time. It removes my need to MO actually. I feel satisfied with seeing people and doing things I like, and at the end of the day the urge to MO is not there, or if it is it is very mild and easily dispelled.
One thing which I noticed more and more lately is the social awkwardness which is a little annoying. I think it might be caused by actually wanting to be social and seeing I am quite rusty. Close friends are beginning to be mostly natural, but around pretty girls I still feel like Bambi on ice
On the good note, I am having a lot more fun with ordinary things and my urges for eating, video games and such has seriously decreased.
I would like to start therapy soon but going to a private one will cost too much and I am relying on the health care system to deem me "bad enough" to get into the government paid alternative. We will see how it goes... meeting doctor on 22nd of August.
That's all!