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mtaha2015
Guest
Thank you so much.
thanks for supporting and praising my sincere efforts for myself.
thanks for supporting and praising my sincere efforts for myself.
M
mtaha2015
Guest
Not feeling well , right now.
I am feeling low and headache also.
withdrawal has started to hit hard now.
I am ready for it.
I will let it pass.
this phase will also pass.
I know 2nd week is the withdrawal week for me.
after 14-18 days , my withdrawal periods ends.
and after that , intense craving period begins.
so Mentally I am focused and concentrated , and ready for the coming future.
I do have plans to deal with these things too.
I am feeling low and headache also.
withdrawal has started to hit hard now.
I am ready for it.
I will let it pass.
this phase will also pass.
I know 2nd week is the withdrawal week for me.
after 14-18 days , my withdrawal periods ends.
and after that , intense craving period begins.
so Mentally I am focused and concentrated , and ready for the coming future.
I do have plans to deal with these things too.
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mtaha2015
Guest
Although I am strong and working hard.
But there are still some weaknesses in my reboot process.
Still I am not avoiding all triggers , and due to this , fantasy is coming , although triggers and fantasies aren't so strong.
but I don't want them. I don't want their presence in my life.
so I have to work more hard on fantasies and triggers.
I should curb the use of radio as well.
But there are still some weaknesses in my reboot process.
Still I am not avoiding all triggers , and due to this , fantasy is coming , although triggers and fantasies aren't so strong.
but I don't want them. I don't want their presence in my life.
so I have to work more hard on fantasies and triggers.
I should curb the use of radio as well.
M
mtaha2015
Guest
Atak said:
calling our self immigrant is wrong I think.
when we left other countries and came to USA for ever , so that word doesn't makes sense anymore.
I must call my self American.
apart from that,
I am from the Karachi.
Karachi is the biggest city of Pakistan.
I am here in USA for 3 years now.
my relatives are here for like more than 30 years.
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mtaha2015
Guest
ups and downs in my reboot.
today was a better day overall.
after coming from job , now I am going to college in next 15 minutes.
busy day.
but my first priority is reboot process.
I am a atheist muslim.
I don't believe in GOD from last 4 or 5 years.
so , I take reboot as scientific and realistic process.
some tele meeting groups are based on concept of GOD.
like you have to think , that you are powerless.
well , that approach doesn't works for me.
I know we all have limitations , and we are powerless to some extent in our lives.
for example , I was born with lots of handicaps , now I can't fix this F@@@.
so ,yes I am powerless to this F@@@
but , I can fix my porn addiction , And I do have power to do so.
But i enjoy those tele meetings , I always learn from those meetings.
today was a better day overall.
after coming from job , now I am going to college in next 15 minutes.
busy day.
but my first priority is reboot process.
I am a atheist muslim.
I don't believe in GOD from last 4 or 5 years.
so , I take reboot as scientific and realistic process.
some tele meeting groups are based on concept of GOD.
like you have to think , that you are powerless.
well , that approach doesn't works for me.
I know we all have limitations , and we are powerless to some extent in our lives.
for example , I was born with lots of handicaps , now I can't fix this F@@@.
so ,yes I am powerless to this F@@@
but , I can fix my porn addiction , And I do have power to do so.
But i enjoy those tele meetings , I always learn from those meetings.
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mtaha2015
Guest
I want to remain humble.
but My past and present sucks too much.
so anger is coming.
I must let this anger go just like craving and other emotions in reboot process.
but My past and present sucks too much.
so anger is coming.
I must let this anger go just like craving and other emotions in reboot process.
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mtaha2015
Guest
feeling tried.
now going to bed.
feeling better than evening.
now going to bed.
feeling better than evening.
Ruy Henrique
Member
hey, regarding the stress, and the exhaustion, have you tried running/jogging, or even just a 30 minute walk? I really LOVE doing it early in the morning, the early sun rays and the birds and the clean air really help me relax my mind. it also helps with depression too
if I can give you a hint, any hint! it would be this... try also to see what good is happening when you take porn out of your life. try to imagine what you will be able to do, once you are cured and fixed from this bad habit. how you will be more 'human', sensitive, and life a happier life, and specially, not feeling guilt about yourself anymore.
it's very important, I think, to also concentrate on the goal, the final objective. this way, you feel motivated! you see the light at the end of the tunnel, and you just want to get there as fast as you can.
do not focus ONLY on the triggers and etc, it will only make you see about all the hardships of the process. try to see also what good things are already happening, and try to imagine how the future will be.
anyways, remember we are responsible for making heaven or hell for ourselves, while here on Earth.
life without porn is heaven - natural feelings and emotions towards life and one another
life with porn is hell - all you see is different things that can give you pleasure, no deep, inner, calm joy
u know... today when i was walking out to college (I am starting also, Psychology, 1st period, wasted a lot of time with many things, long story, don't mind sharing some other time) it started raining, and it was very brief, lasted about 5-10 minutes. I stayed under a tree, and waited for it to end, and at that moment I started "watching the time"... because i had nothing else to do, u know. and, i looked at stuff, and instead of worrying about anything that was on my mind, I just... blankly stared at the reality in front of me. I even remember, an old lady drived by and I realised: right now, right this second, we have absolutely nothing to worry about... really, think about it: only things that get us thinking, are made up by our minds. like, "I need to graduate well, so I can have a decent job and not starve", thinking about the future with logic and reason, but right now? You're not hungry now. there's not even anything threatening your satety, as of now. so, if you think about it, we shouldn't be worried at all, ever. u know? just thinking about what needs to be done, and doing that. and while we have nothing to do, thinking about absolutely nothing! ...the problem is, we're very accostumed to overthinking, and preocupating... and it's impossible "not to think"; you have to focus you attention on something else, like, the imediate reality of your surroundings, or something like that. for example, when you see a tree, just see the tree, don't think about the tree, don't think the tree, see the tree. get it? he he . . . anyways, just something I guess I wanted to share... and I hope it can also be useful to "feed" your mind!
good luck, man. live long, and prosper.
if I can give you a hint, any hint! it would be this... try also to see what good is happening when you take porn out of your life. try to imagine what you will be able to do, once you are cured and fixed from this bad habit. how you will be more 'human', sensitive, and life a happier life, and specially, not feeling guilt about yourself anymore.
it's very important, I think, to also concentrate on the goal, the final objective. this way, you feel motivated! you see the light at the end of the tunnel, and you just want to get there as fast as you can.
do not focus ONLY on the triggers and etc, it will only make you see about all the hardships of the process. try to see also what good things are already happening, and try to imagine how the future will be.
anyways, remember we are responsible for making heaven or hell for ourselves, while here on Earth.
life without porn is heaven - natural feelings and emotions towards life and one another
life with porn is hell - all you see is different things that can give you pleasure, no deep, inner, calm joy
u know... today when i was walking out to college (I am starting also, Psychology, 1st period, wasted a lot of time with many things, long story, don't mind sharing some other time) it started raining, and it was very brief, lasted about 5-10 minutes. I stayed under a tree, and waited for it to end, and at that moment I started "watching the time"... because i had nothing else to do, u know. and, i looked at stuff, and instead of worrying about anything that was on my mind, I just... blankly stared at the reality in front of me. I even remember, an old lady drived by and I realised: right now, right this second, we have absolutely nothing to worry about... really, think about it: only things that get us thinking, are made up by our minds. like, "I need to graduate well, so I can have a decent job and not starve", thinking about the future with logic and reason, but right now? You're not hungry now. there's not even anything threatening your satety, as of now. so, if you think about it, we shouldn't be worried at all, ever. u know? just thinking about what needs to be done, and doing that. and while we have nothing to do, thinking about absolutely nothing! ...the problem is, we're very accostumed to overthinking, and preocupating... and it's impossible "not to think"; you have to focus you attention on something else, like, the imediate reality of your surroundings, or something like that. for example, when you see a tree, just see the tree, don't think about the tree, don't think the tree, see the tree. get it? he he . . . anyways, just something I guess I wanted to share... and I hope it can also be useful to "feed" your mind!
good luck, man. live long, and prosper.
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mtaha2015
Guest
thank you ruy.
thanks a lot for helping me and guiding.
you are right , I should also see, what positive things are happening around me due to this rebooting process.
focusing just on triggers and fantasies , would just tell me the hardships of this process , I should also focus on the positive outcomes of the rebooting process.
spending time in nature is great.
I wish I could have.
But i have tons of home works and job also.
but as you said , jogging , walking might help me.
I will start trying first exercises in the home.
thanks a lot for helping me and guiding.
you are right , I should also see, what positive things are happening around me due to this rebooting process.
focusing just on triggers and fantasies , would just tell me the hardships of this process , I should also focus on the positive outcomes of the rebooting process.
spending time in nature is great.
I wish I could have.
But i have tons of home works and job also.
but as you said , jogging , walking might help me.
I will start trying first exercises in the home.
robust
Active Member
Ruy Henrique said:
There's nothing better than getting up at 5 in the morning and go for some sprints (seriously.. Until exhaustion!). Find a spot where you can watch the sun rising afterwards. That's one of my favorite "routines" during spring- and summertime. If you did sprints in the morning, there's nothing left that day that you cannot conquer. Makes you fitter, gives you mental strength and prepares you for an epic day.
Ruy Henrique said:
Focusing on triggers is only good in the beginning (to be prepared for the first time of the journey). You really should not think about them anymore. Literally forget about them. Rather - as you said, Ruy - focus on what is about to come. It will have much more power of attraction because you have something to reach and strive for. Just "running away" from an addiction or triggers will be exhausting. There's no real reward. That' when a relapse could kick on in order to "simulate" a reward - and indeed that would be a bad one, as we all know!
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mtaha2015
Guest
Thank you. you both guys.
I will implement this in my rebooting process.
Thanks a lot again.
I will implement this in my rebooting process.
Thanks a lot again.
M
mtaha2015
Guest
good start today.
nothing bad , except the chemicals i could feel in my eyes due to rebooting process. burning and itching eyes.
I am so tried.
I need rest
going to sleep for next 2 hours.
Then I have to complete home work.
very tough schedule.
I am a lazy guy.
I am surprised , how those people manage full time college with 2 jobs.
nothing bad , except the chemicals i could feel in my eyes due to rebooting process. burning and itching eyes.
I am so tried.
I need rest
going to sleep for next 2 hours.
Then I have to complete home work.
very tough schedule.
I am a lazy guy.
I am surprised , how those people manage full time college with 2 jobs.
M
mtaha2015
Guest
4 hours away from completing 10 days. 
good progress. must appreciate my self.
I forgot to tell one thing in the morning.
I had a wet dream last night.
I am responsible for it, I was wearing underwear and tight pant in night , that's why I got wet dream.
from today I will be careful, I will wear loose night dress.
it didn't brought any lust or fantasy this time too, may be because I am very concentrated.
but yesterday night in class , I was looking at girls. then , I realized , I am engaging my self in triggers.
so I started to look down.
so yesterday night , I got little imbalanced , started to see girls.
now feeling better after taking rest of 2 hour sleep.
doing home work right now.
will leave for job after 1 hour.
thanks all for supporting me in my journey of rebooting.
and yes , constipation is still there , I am gonna take medicine for constipation again.
it is hitting me very hard.
good progress. must appreciate my self.I forgot to tell one thing in the morning.
I had a wet dream last night.
I am responsible for it, I was wearing underwear and tight pant in night , that's why I got wet dream.
from today I will be careful, I will wear loose night dress.
it didn't brought any lust or fantasy this time too, may be because I am very concentrated.
but yesterday night in class , I was looking at girls. then , I realized , I am engaging my self in triggers.
so I started to look down.
so yesterday night , I got little imbalanced , started to see girls.
now feeling better after taking rest of 2 hour sleep.
doing home work right now.
will leave for job after 1 hour.
thanks all for supporting me in my journey of rebooting.
and yes , constipation is still there , I am gonna take medicine for constipation again.
it is hitting me very hard.
M
mtaha2015
Guest
Thank you dude.
I am really enjoying post stuff on people's journals.
it is helping me too.
learning different things.
we can break through social support.
Reboot nation is a great support.
I am really enjoying post stuff on people's journals.
it is helping me too.
learning different things.
we can break through social support.
Reboot nation is a great support.
NeverSurrender
Member
Hey man, I see you all over the forum encouraging people in their journals. Way to go and I hope you are successful in your reboot, I never imagined porn would turn into such a demon for me. I know we can all do it, so many of the success stories resonate with me and I know if we stick with it we will be on the other end of those posts. This is a growing experience for all of us. I wish you luck taha.
-NeverSurrender
-NeverSurrender
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mtaha2015
Guest
Thank you surrender.
great words for me.
Thanks a lot.
great words for me.
Thanks a lot.
M
mtaha2015
Guest
okay , so over all day was good.
but today , just few minutes ago 20-25 mins ago , I went to fantasy for about 1 minute unintentionally and when I found and caught my self in fantasy , I dismissed it instantly.
But I recognized my weakness.
may be , My control is not that strong today , as it was yesterday.
I had few triggers also today.
no triggers on radio today.
but some one else was watching tv , and when I was going through TV area , I saw the screen of tv , and there was a sex scene going on in drama trailer.
it would had bad effects on my reboot.
may be at some level I got effected from it.
today after completing 10 days of reboot.
first time , I can feel cravings.
real kind of cravings.
yesterday night wet dream brought all these things in my reboot.
that why I don't like wet dream , it always leads to lust and cravings.
I saw the same thing in wet dream yesterday ,
I saw I relapsed and then same kind of low and depression was happening to me in dream.
but wet dream was real , my pant got wet.
so this wet dream has made things bad for me in reboot.
today I am sleeping with loose cloths.
I hope no more wet dreams now.
I am not afraid , but I hate.
I must let these feelings go.
letting go.
but today , just few minutes ago 20-25 mins ago , I went to fantasy for about 1 minute unintentionally and when I found and caught my self in fantasy , I dismissed it instantly.
But I recognized my weakness.
may be , My control is not that strong today , as it was yesterday.
I had few triggers also today.
no triggers on radio today.
but some one else was watching tv , and when I was going through TV area , I saw the screen of tv , and there was a sex scene going on in drama trailer.
it would had bad effects on my reboot.
may be at some level I got effected from it.
today after completing 10 days of reboot.
first time , I can feel cravings.
real kind of cravings.
yesterday night wet dream brought all these things in my reboot.
that why I don't like wet dream , it always leads to lust and cravings.
I saw the same thing in wet dream yesterday ,
I saw I relapsed and then same kind of low and depression was happening to me in dream.
but wet dream was real , my pant got wet.
so this wet dream has made things bad for me in reboot.
today I am sleeping with loose cloths.
I hope no more wet dreams now.
I am not afraid , but I hate.
I must let these feelings go.
letting go.
M
mtaha2015
Guest
10 days completed