Conquer. Personal Growth.

[jnv]

Being tired is the worst of all things. But it's mostly rather a mental tiredness ("within the head") that I experience. My body is working Most of the time. It's strange.. Keep on going, too, brah. Thanks for your reply.

It's the same kind of tiredness I experience in the beginning of a new streak. I feel like my body is just fine, but I wouldn't mind lying on my bed because my head is slow and I'm in a constant state of....I dont have words, it's the same state as when you went to bed at midnight after a party and you wake up only 3-4 hours later. I guess it's the brain fog.

 

[robust]

Being tired is the worst of all things. But it's mostly rather a mental tiredness ("within the head") that I experience. My body is working Most of the time. It's strange.. Keep on going, too, brah. Thanks for your reply.

It's the same kind of tiredness I experience in the beginning of a new streak. I feel like my body is just fine, but I wouldn't mind lying on my bed because my head is slow and I'm in a constant state of....I dont have words, it's the same state as when you went to bed at midnight after a party and you wake up only 3-4 hours later. I guess it's the brain fog.

Yes, exactly. Attacking is the best defense in this case. Doing some easy tasks like cleaning up helps me a lot in those cases.

Day 99. Penis responds to my touches and gets more or less hard. MWs around 90%, I would say. Libido not extremly strong, but available. It's a nice and constant energy that flows through my body. It feels pretty natural (at least I guess that it feels natural ).

Hunger for more. It's constantly increasing. Wrote some exams during the last days. I cannot even understand how people can fail something like this. I just don't remember how it is to fail. My whole attitude has shifted even more towards success. It's just so damn easy to be better than the mediocrity.

Still no superpowers. Just a normal life - finally.

See you soon. Done.

 

[freefromwinternight]

"It's just so damn easy to be better than the mediocrity."  8) So true, man. Congratulations!

 

[robust]

Not going to post on a daily basis anymore. I think that there is not too much to tell.

I'm 100+ now. Got a pretty firm (not fully) erection by just talking to a Module-aged woman this morning. MW almost everyday (not on days where I wake up "tired"). Can get quite hard and erections are lasting longer. Not fully cured yet but I'm on my way. It is getting better and better. Some sexual dreams, but none of them "wet". Libido is given, but its intensity cycles from day to day. However, my "sexuality" doesn't influence my mood anymore. Yes, there will be days that suck. But I think that is not because of masturbation anymore (well, at least not only). I broke the chains. I accepted my human drives as something natural without being dependent.

Had a dream of a girl I know from university. In that dream I kissed her. Not sure if I've got a crush now. However, I see her differently now. I'd like to meet her soon. I'm not sure whether she is interested but sympathy is given on both sides. We'll see..

Dealing with different important questions in life right now. It seems as if I'm finding my own way more and more. The longer the streak lasts, the more mature I feel and the more confidence I develop. I'm not the same person that I was in the beginning of the year. Going my own way right now. Most of the time against the current. Feeling like the guy in Breaking Bad Or so. Or Underwood in House of Cards. Maybe Neo in Matrix. Something like that.

 

[robust]

110 days in.

Let Gerald Butler speak for me:

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ebYM2-xyc8s

I'm just surprised by myself. I began this streak at the right time and in the right Place. I finally got rid of that shit, so now I can focus on the important things.

ED is getting better and better, libido returns. No mood swings anymore. Sleeping well, living well. Not interested in women anymore. I found out that I was only interested in them for sexual purposes. Now that I've fixed my "dysfunctions", I don't see any value in relationships, marriage Or stuff like that anymore. Spending time with myself is the best thing I can do at the moment.

I'll be back on day 120 (if nothing special happens).

 

[robust]

So.. Yeah.. I'm back.

Surprisingly, I had a wet dream last night. Day 111. I didn't really expect it to happen, but well, sooner Or later it had to, I guess.

Not even too brain-fogged today. Actually a normal energy level and good concentration. Kind of chaser effect, in the sense that I think about sex pretty often (well, I also got an offer to have sex by a woman (won't take that offer because I don't have any incentives to cope with women at the moment..)), which also could be the reason for that.

The bad thing: penis is in a "flatline-state". Quite small, kind of shrivelled. No real libido, no life down there. Only useful for peeing. I really feel "empty" (which is also positive because the pressure is gone).

I'll take it as it comes. I'm not afraid of hitting another flatline, neither of mood swings. I didn't have an orgasm for a third of a year, so I've seen it all.. Business as usual. However, I'm quite "afraid" now that I'm one of the "hard cases", who will have to struggle for years to fully heal. But that is actually an irrational thought because life has never been as good as during the streak. It's kind of paradox. But I'll accept that paradox. It's fine for me, I can cope with it.

No regrets, no feelings of guilt, actually no negative feelings. I'm not doing well, but it also could be worse. Just a normal day.

COME AT ME, BRAH.

 

[robust]

Well, no chaser effect and no negative side effects. I'm really doing fine. Just had sex with a woman I don't know for too long. I know that I said that I wanted to "avoid" that but it just happened. I took the chance. I don't want to discuss the morals of it, but I think I that I just picked her up. Many things have changed within the last for month, mostly my personality. I'm the best version of myself at the Moment and I think that this has effects on my eco-system. Both men and women are acting differently. And yes: I am "using" that for my favors. Several people told me that my solution-orientated thinking is amazing (independently from each other). Fixing problems and marching forward without complaining seems to be my thing. Is this all the way I am?

Could stay hard, by the way.. Not fully, but 95% or so. Felt good. Could last for a fair amount of time. Definetly improvement, still not fully cured. Might habe to rewire. I don't know.. We'll see!

Naked I may speak now for I know both:
Men are treacherous too
Fairest we speak when falsest we think:
many a maid is deceived.

Gallantly shall he speak and gifts bring
Who wishes for woman's love:
praise the features of the fair girl,
Who courts well will conquer.

 

[robust]

Just woke up.. Libido (yes, libido, not the chaser effect - I can tell the difference!) high as hell. Was the last night a kind of kickstarter?

Let's see how I can deal with it. For now, I'm just going to work out. 8)

 

[robust]

Gentlemen.

I have to repost that video: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ebYM2-xyc8s

Indeed, I had a kickstarter. 117 days in and it feels like the big things are just happening now. I've got a high. It really feels like superpowers in a way. (BUT: last night I drunk some alcohol - made my confidence vanish.) It's like playing a game in which I am the gamemaster. For every concern, there is a right thing to do. And I can easily figure that out. Not only are other people influenced by that (I can connect with them in a way that I've never dreamt of - and no, not with everyone, that's not possible), I can also fix problems in my mind effectively. I can get into any mood I want just by pushing myself into it.

With regards to the ED: got a slight boner in the gym by watching a woman (she saw it, but I didn't care.. It was not embarassing at all). I can get it up quite easily, still not fully hard, but it doesn't take the effort it used to. I'm not forcing it by the way.. It's not that I'm Trying it out all the time. To be honest, I don't think about sex Or masturbation anymore. Only when I am with a woman or I see a pretty one on the streets Or so. I recognize these thoughts and appreciate the beauty of a woman whenever that happens, but I'll get her out of my mind quickly after that. Now I can focus on what is really important: on me and my mission.

I'm not taking life by the horns at the moment. It shall lead me. Let's see where it takes me. And I hope that it scares and shocks the shit out of me. I want an adventure now. Constant desire for more challenges. More more more. I want to develop myself.

 

[robust]

Yo, what's up.

Returning after one month - but don't worry, just for a quick update!

I masturbated a couple of times during the last four weeks. But not only that.. I also had sex a couple of times. Something has changed within myself. People in general are more attracted to me. Women come, women go. Interaction with both men and women is easier than ot was six month ago. Seducing people (in the broadest sense) is an easy game now.

However, I'm not content with the fact that I'm masturbating again (never to porn!). It's just dumb desire, like a chaser effect after having sex. So I'm going to stop it again. It really does influence my performance in life. Well, not as much as it used to, but I can still feel an impact. It has to stop. So the next time will be a semi-hardmode. Semi, because I don't have a girlfriend. If I wanted to have sex, I would have to go "hunting" first. There's no certainty for me. And I won't force it neither. I have other things to do than chasing some girls in a club. But if there's some free time, I might be doing it. I'll see!

Penis is working, I can go for a second round of sex after like a five minute breake. However, I'm not as hard as I'd like to during this second round and the sensastions are quite weak. It gets hard for me to come then. Maybe that's where rewiring would be beneficial. Who knows.

One last thing: Sex os fine. But to all of you guys you struggle: The best feeling is not to ejeculate for a longer period of time. Once you've passed the first hard flatline, you'll feel great. I'm really looking forward to that feeling again. No need to ejeculate frequently for a man without a partner. Use your new energy!

 

[mtaha2015]

off course you won't be hard at second time because you already ejaculated a lots of energy outside your body.

 

[robust]

Back again to conquer another challenge.

What's happened during the last weeks? Well, had sex several times and masturbated more or less often (I think it was a frequency which one could call normal, so no binging). No porn. ED cured, only when I'm stressed out - I'm not a machine!

So, why am I back?

Life bores me. No shit. No bragging. But: Once you did the 90+ days, you don't really want to go back. I'm looking for a new challenge.

The rules this time:

- no masturbation
- no porn
- no fantasies (as well as this is possible - I want this streak to be a kind of "meditation")
- sex is allowed (got a girl by my side)

Warrior's mindset. Do or die. Over the past couple of month I developed my personality in huge huge steps. Among other stuff I'm doing right now, this streak will contribute to more growth.

Last orgasm was last night, so this is day one. Aiming to quit masturbation for a long time. It's nothing bad to do, so I'm not gonna say that I stop forever. I'll just enjoy the process this time.

Gonna hit the forums once in a while, promised.

 

[robust]

Quite easy so far. However, my libido is higher than ever. That has several reason:

- last streak got me more or less cured
- eating more fats
- trying dynamic meditation at the moment (led to a huge increase of sexual energy!).

Dynamic meditations made my erections even more solid and my sexual feelings in the area of my belly and below strong as hell. Whenever I feel a desire, this desire is a bursting emotion, almost uncontrollable. It's really aggressive, pure masculine energy. Option 1 would be to masturbate it away. I'm chossing option 2, which is to hold strong and seize the aggression in a tender way.

I really feel like loosing up at the moment. Tenderness is coming to my life. Plus the missing brain-fog from past days leads to more clarity and objectification in all of my behaviors.

All in all, I think that my last streak back in january cured me. This streak is just for fun. No need for it, but certainly not the worst thing to do. Feels good.

 

[robust]

I do enjoy.

Wow. Something is happening inside of me. Dynamic meditation + consciously not masturbating + being in "the zone" = epic. Horny. For life. Incredible feeling. Like a great Oneness.

 

[Mekka]

What is your current streak if you don't mind me asking?  Although I have noticed and felt improvements in the social aspect of my recovery, I have yet to see any noticeable changes physically, just yet.  I know for certain that I may be one of those extended cases of patients who have to wait at least 5+ months to recover from hardcore PIED, and who definitely needs a women to track any progress in that regard, but right now that is not possible.  lol.  Thanks.  Keep posting. 

 

[robust]

What is your current streak if you don't mind me asking?  Although I have noticed and felt improvements in the social aspect of my recovery, I have yet to see any noticeable changes physically, just yet.  I know for certain that I may be one of those extended cases of patients who have to wait at least 5+ months to recover from hardcore PIED, and who definitely needs a women to track any progress in that regard, but right now that is not possible.  lol.  Thanks.  Keep posting.

Ask whatever and whenever you want. Feel free to do so!

Current streak: four days. As for my "history": Not masturbating was only one part of the journey. Getting fully cured required a whole lot of personal development. I was never a strange guy or something, just caught in my head. Stressed out by my own thoughts and the ineffective way of life. What I want to say: take your time. Sustainable progress requires a deep and holistic change on many layers of your body and mind. Being an "extended case" is actually what I was, too. And that's what I'm glad about in retrospective because that allowed me to take my time, reflect and make real changes without falling back over and over again.

I began this streak out of joy. I want to feel the impression of masculine energy in my body. I'm not going to waste it. Rather, I will share that energy with my girl. It's a streak out of love to the nature, to myself and to others. And by the way: #NoHippie. I just discovered and experienced the spiritual side of life during the last year and can now implement it into my journey.

Taking it easy today. Some reading, learning, a lot of stretching. Ate well. Gonna do my daily meditations in the evening. No flatline-symptoms or whatever. Just a calm and smooth feeling down there.

 

[robust]

Energy levels low --> whole body is working inefficiently. Couldn't keep my normal "routine", didn't sleep enough and had to rush through the day. That does not cause bad mood (actually I'm never moody or grumpy), but my organism is impacted. Doesn't feel too good. But well, that's life, I guess. No erection today. Tired. Gotta be aware of lustful desires. These days are typical for having some of that instant gratification.

All the best.

 

[robust]

Nothing to report. Only thing I'm getting more and more aware of: low energy --> weaker erections. Low energy most likely because of wasting time, meaning: doing thing without any sense (youtube, masturbation, junk food, not doing the tasks that need to be done, ...). Body is getting weak then, but also the mind. The only solution: Grow stronger and develop yourself. Body and mind will become stronger too and hence your penis. Short: weak person= weak erection; weak erection --> even weaker person due to lack of confidence. Vicious circle. Break your chains. Mind is everything.

 

[robust]

Hey guys,

another year, another try. I'm going to get back on track again and start a streak. Let me explain.

The last six month of my life were kind of okay, not too much happened. All in all, I would say that it was neither a time of personal growth nor a time deprevation. I did my stuff, finished university, still doing a lot of sports, started playing chess a couple of month ago (played in a club as a kind, so I already knew the basics - I'm making a lot of progress though) and actually I'm doing fine.

But something is not right. I feel like my personal developement got kind of stuck. I have always been into that stuff, but somehow I stopped being so enthusiastic about working concretely on myself. That could have several reasons I'm not going to explain here - it's just not important. Let's say that I might just got kind of sick of all that stuff and I needed a break. However, the desire to have a little comeback into the world of conscious personal developement arises inside of me. And that's why I'm back here.

I don't have any problems with porn or erections, I'm perfectly fine. I'm - luckily - a healthy man in his mid twenties. So why would I go on another streak? Well, just for the reason that I think that this is the right thing to do. One could say I'd like to fast. I'm sick of all the sexuality in the society, porn is just annoying (watched it from time to time) and I my attitude towards all that stuff got quite negative.

All in all, I'd like to go for a challenge again, a fast, which is supposed to have long-term effects. The last (sucessful) attempts were nice by themselves, but I will try to make some major changes this time in my mind-set. Notice that going on a new streak won't be the only thing I'm doing at the moment - as I said, the concrete work on my personal growth is starting again, too. Quitting masturbation is just another piece of the puzzle. However, I don't have a particular goal that I want to reach. It's just about to change some variables again.

One last important thing to be mentioned. The older I get, the more mature I'm looking at this whole thing called "NoFap" (well, if I wouldn't get more mature, it were kind of sad, no? ). When I look back on the first attempt, it was way to "aggressive". This time, I'm really enjoying the fact to be back and to have a chance to get a stronger version of myself.

That being said, I'd like to thank all of you that are participating on my journey - please feel free to comment and ask anything you want. I will be on the forums on a daily basis because I don't want to lose track.

 

[Maxime]

Hey there! I just got back here tonight aswell.
Hang in there!