Road to recovery - a winning path?

[Taka]

Okay fellas here is an update. I think I have pretty much recovered sensation for pleasure. My schlong no longer feels completely numb like before. I think this aspect of my problem is gone. Touching and stroking from myself and girls feels good again and not like I am humping air. Almost like I was just a teenager and starting to M. One of remaining things is to eradicate porn from my life because I had a few relapses about week apart from each other since last post (although it was erotic literature and softcore pics, but porn nonetheless).
I also need to work on relationships with girls and learn to show interest and feelings (I am giving all sorts of mixed signals and it just never works that way).

 

[jnv]

Seems we kind of are at the same stage in our reboot. Even though I relapsed I've recently noticed great improvement regarding sensations. Plus, I'm now trying to work on improving socialisation and particularly how to  show interest with girls which hasn't naturally been part of my behaviour. Good luck and keep up the good work!

 

[Taka]

Thx for your post jnv. Good to hear there are guys like me going through similar stuff.
Anyway it is very hard to break that vicious circle of relapses. I guess I really need to get a long term girlfriend.

 

[Taka]

I have got an interesting experience. Some girl writes me on the internet if I want to F her right now in the middle of the night but before her boyfriend. It is funny because I liked those scenes in P but I know my dick simply would not work in the real situation. I mean not that it would not work because of ED problems but because it would be weird to try to get it up before a complete stranger. This really let me see that fantasy and reality is so far apart.

 

[Taka]

Ok guys, here is an update. I think I am finally back on track. I have passed one week mark of no P and that was crucial for me. Hope this time I will banish this habit for good. Since I am rebooting for a long time and had several long streak I have already begun to rewire my brain.

 

[aviator]

Ok guys, here is an update. I think I am finally back on track. I have passed one week mark of no P and that was crucial for me. Hope this time I will banish this habit for good. Since I am rebooting for a long time and had several long streak I have already begun to rewire my brain.

Don't give in, you got this.

 

[jnv]

Keep up the good work dude. One week is quite an important milestone in the process I guess and you seem to have the positive minset now which is the most important thing!

 

[Taka]

Oh man, I have just found out girl I am interested in got another suitor. I cannot go through such crap. I really need a steady girlfriend just for me. This just leads me to a circle of relapses. I had another good streak going on but now I just gave up.

 

[Taka]

Any insights on the  topic of advantages and disadvantages of having a girlfriend during reboot. I feel like I cannot do it when I am single, can I?

 

[Taka]

Ok, so I have been finally able to keep it together and I am almost 8 days clean again. I was on a few dates recently and it was very helpful. Hope I will not budge in the near future and finally erradicate porn use from my life.

 

[Taka]

Okay, so today I have found that reading my old posts about progress is quite helpful. The benefits are amazing if you can last for a long time. Almost forgot about that.

 

[Taka]

I am going for my new record. Already hit my previous record. This time several things helped me - new job, introducing MO every once in a while, new girlfriend and very little of spare time. Hope I will share my success story soon

 

[CrazyGopher]

Congratulations on your progress, Taka! I hope you are doing well.

Looking forward to that success story, for sure.

- Gopher

 

[Taka]

Hey Crazy Gopher. Things was not going well between my grilfriend and me. Anyway, long story short I have failed my abstinence of porn. Also found out stress is my biggest enemy here.

 

[mtaha2015]

break the stress.
take rest.

you have to do some thing , no body else gonna come and give you rest.

you have to manage time.
take rest
take naps.
take good proper sleep.

relax.

make things go slow in your life.

and fight hard with this addiction.

 

[Taka]

I?ve got some news, everyone. My battle with this addiction is good so far. I?m at day 34 and have a critical period since I?ve got some cravings and porn flashbacks. My dreams are weird according to categories of videos I?ve used to watch.

I can only say that rebooting becomes easier every time one fails (willingly or not) and starts over. Important things for me are to find good life and work balance and healthy relationships. The second one is much harder since I have multiple girls romantically interested in me (Yes, I think it is partially thanks to rebooting).

Fun fact, my friend down there now tells me if a date with the girl is going well and she is into me by getting a little hard. Primal instincts are back man

 

[mtaha2015]

taka 34 days is a great accomplishment.
but don't forget. one mistake and you will be on zero.
so stay cautious.
don't think that you have won the battle.
stay calm and focused.
I am sure you will enjoy more benefits of porn-free life after 100 days of NO PMO.

 

[jnv]

great to hear you are doing well man.
keep up the good work!

 

[Taka]

Oh yeah. Closing in on my previous record. I almost gave up rebooting and was watching P from time to time. Nevertheless I am back on track and I am soooo close to getting to initial 90 days and hopefully beyond.

One note aside: During my rebooting trials my sex life improved significantly  I even started to enjoying real life sex encounters which was impossible before since my penis and my mind was completely numb to the experience. Everytime I watched P however I had some minor DE and ED problems. I have to cast this devil from my life for good.

 

[CrazyGopher]

Congrats Taka! I recently passed my previous best and was super thrilled, so I know how excited you must feel. Keep it up ;D