This is my reboot journal 24 y/o M

[razorbladenation]

Hi all,

I am rebooting. I've been reading all of your other forums but I am ready to cut porn out of my life. Should I quit masterbating too?

I am a failure. I have a confession. I mostly watch porn when I'm drunk, or at least that is how I fall back into using porn. I am too numb and I can't get off without when I drink. Then I feel depressed that I slipped backwards and so I continue doing it once I have restarted.

I can not escape triggers. Because of my profession I am unable to cut internet out of my life or do any of the things that Gabe has done.

What I am most ashamed about is that as an alternative to porn I started looking at photos of girls I meet on Facebook. I scroll through them to find a pose of them that looks sexy and then try and use my imagination to undress them with my mind. I know this is wrong and an invasion and I would like to cut this out of my life... I need help.

 

[Fappy]

Hi mate. Welcome to the nation!
Firstly, this first step you have taken is great. You have found the cure to all of your ills here. All of that bullshit that has been caused by porn is soon to be banished from your life.
It seems like you have already identified a trigger: alcohol. Recognizing triggers is a good technique in your fight as you can eliminate the urge before it can take control of you. 
Just so we can give you some more  advice, do you have any other symptoms of porn abuse such as erectile dysfunction or extreme social anxiety?
Just stick with this reboot thing and you will get your life back! 

 

[mtaha2015]

cut the internet off is really difficult in this age.
but it can really cure this addiction very easily.

 

[razorbladenation]

Thanks for the support! It feels nice to know I'm not the only person going through this.

The blog says to journal...is this something I should do everyday?

Unfortunately I can not stop using the internet at this point in my life...its truely a tool that I must use for work. On top of that part of my work involves looking at porn or highly graphic images. I'm hoping that by using this forum though that I can also lean on ya'll for advice.

Excited to go through this!

 

[razorbladenation]

Checking in.


Almost day 5 here. It hasn't been too difficult not to masterbate to porn. Unfortunately I have to look at porn for work as part of my job. Sometimes the porn makes me horny but I am able to power through.

Is it ok to masterbate to your thoughts you think?

 

[Fappy]

Yeah as long as its not to any porn fantasy. Having a good ole toss is fine.

 

[DayByDay]

veryday? Unfortunately I can not stop using the internet at this point in my life...its truely a tool that I must use for work. On top of that part of my work involves looking at porn or highly graphic images. I'm hoping that by using this forum though that I can also lean on ya'll for advice.

Hey Razor welcome to RN.

I'm sorry to say this but I think your reboot is going to be extremely difficult if you still have to face P at work. Its going to be tough to break any pathways your brain has created because you will be watching P on a daily basis. Is there any way you'd be able to get out of P at work?

Some people recommend not MOing and some people say do it. It all depends on you and what works for you. Personally I found that I'd be able to control MO for a while but eventually it would lead me back to PMO. Because of this I have chosen to not PMO anymore. Some people also say that no PMO is the quickest way to recover but again that can be true for some and wrong for others.