I m'd, It's over

[Anoniem5]

I almost hit the 90 days. And I fucked up. Right before my goal.

So i felt really depressed this evening being alone just with random thoughts.
I bought some condoms yesterday for a festival and kinda wanted to test if these fit. So I got a hard one (just by touch) and put it on. Then, for some reason just couldn't stop and M'd. Terrible. I feel even more depressed and stupid now.

I didn't use any sexual stimulation while doing this so I am actually wondering if I did much harm?
Or should I reset my counter?

God damn it I feel really depressed now :/

 

[Khamos]

just my two cents but if you were not using any stimuli (visuals, thoughts) then its not a porn relapse, and likely felt considerably different from mastbating with porn.
just my view but decided for yourself what feels right.

 

[JG2690]

@Khamos is right! no harm done. Just because you masturbated doesn't mean that those 90 days of no PMO came to a stop. You have made great progress thus far! You're probably even cured, you won't know unless you go try it with a women. Go ahead!

 

[downunder92]

I second what JG2690 says. It is no big deal! Don't stress. You went so many days without PMO; which is great! Think about what motivated you to stop PMO. Don't worry about the counter.

 

[Achilles]

Try not to sweat it, man. Counting days is purely psychological. If any progress has been lost, it will only be a very small amount... so do not binge! (and watch out for that chaser).

 

[Anoniem5]

@Khamos is right! no harm done. Just because you masturbated doesn't mean that those 90 days of no PMO came to a stop. You have made great progress thus far! You're probably even cured, you won't know unless you go try it with a women. Go ahead!

That's the thing, I have never had sex with a woman or something like that so I wouldn't really know. To be really honest the only thing I base my PIED on is my lack of morning wood.

 

[Fappy]

So you just put a connie on then jerked into it? Thats called a "posh wank".
There was no porn use or visual stimuli.
I wouldnt deem that a relapse. Dont worry too much.

 

[Pr3c1se]

So you're upset you masturbated while not fantazing or looking at porn?!?!?  THAT'S WHAT EVERYONE HERE IS TRYING TO ACCOMPLISH! haha  You're fine man, don't be so hard on yourself!  You're allowed to masturbate occasionally, it's OK!  Just don't let it mess with your head into thinking you've failed, that's when you start to do bad things.  Don't ever tell yourself "well I failed already, so I might as well PMO".. this is a lie your brain uses to try to trick you into using Porn. 

You're doing great.  An amazing sign of recovery is the ability to masturbate WITHOUT fantasy or porn!! You just did it!!  That's a GOOD THING.  Just go back to hardmode and you'll be fine.  Don't need to reset your counter, beat that 90 days mark and go way past it!!

 

[finoff]

You go almost 90 days, you MO without porn. Consider it an improvement, not a failure and get straight back on the track.

Even if you would have watched P you would have done away only something like 20% of your progress. It won't set one back to square one, this is my experience, actually even bringing down P intensity to something like once a week and doing it only for fun, not for a habit has huge benefits compared to daily dosing.

 

[Anoniem5]

So you're upset you masturbated while not fantazing or looking at porn?!?!?  THAT'S WHAT EVERYONE HERE IS TRYING TO ACCOMPLISH! haha  You're fine man, don't be so hard on yourself!  You're allowed to masturbate occasionally, it's OK!  Just don't let it mess with your head into thinking you've failed, that's when you start to do bad things.  Don't ever tell yourself "well I failed already, so I might as well PMO".. this is a lie your brain uses to try to trick you into using Porn. 

You're doing great.  An amazing sign of recovery is the ability to masturbate WITHOUT fantasy or porn!! You just did it!!  That's a GOOD THING.  Just go back to hardmode and you'll be fine.  Don't need to reset your counter, beat that 90 days mark and go way past it!!

Thanks

 

[Anoniem5]

You go almost 90 days, you MO without porn. Consider it an improvement, not a failure and get straight back on the track.

Even if you would have watched P you would have done away only something like 20% of your progress. It won't set one back to square one, this is my experience, actually even bringing down P intensity to something like once a week and doing it only for fun, not for a habit has huge benefits compared to daily dosing.

Thanks