It's been awhile since I've been on here and a lot has happened. I relapsed for the first time after about 6 weeks no PMO. At first I just MO'd one night and afterwards I felt alright and didn't think it would be a big deal. Then a week later I MO'd again. Within a couple of days I was back into PMO and it took me about 2 weeks before I was able to bring myself back. I'm now a week and a half in. Should be getting close to 90 days though...
Moral of the story; MO might seem harmless even if you aren't even thinking about P when you do it but it will lead you right back to old habits. The hardest part for me is not thinking about women I know and am attracted to when I am trying to go to sleep or when I first wake up. In fact, I think my first MO relapse happened when I woke up and had a strong urge and was feeling too foggy to fight it.
Moral of the story; MO might seem harmless even if you aren't even thinking about P when you do it but it will lead you right back to old habits. The hardest part for me is not thinking about women I know and am attracted to when I am trying to go to sleep or when I first wake up. In fact, I think my first MO relapse happened when I woke up and had a strong urge and was feeling too foggy to fight it.