From PMO to Productive Energy (Personal Journal)

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CarloGualvez

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Day 0-11: I said my problem to a woman of values

Its been a while since I posted here in our forum and my last post was about I am near to a week but then I still relapsed in that day also.

Until I attended a religious event in which I met deeply a woman I've known for a long time. She gave a story in which it can be a negative effect of pornography in a person's life, and here I go, I've shared my experience and as I share my experience and thoughts, man, battling urges became easy to me. From this day, I am not struggling because when I heard that story, I don't want to feel her rejected (I am about to court her) She becomes my why!

Man, I encourage all the man out here, share your negative experiences to a trusted woman and you will easily conquer this battle!
 
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CarloGualvez

Member
Day 12-22: I am able to get through!!!

Yey! 22 days without PMO or MO! Remember the person who give me the motivation indirectly to stop this? We have a little fight because I said that I like her in public (quite embarrassing for her) and she rejected me and I reacted so much enough for her to feel bad on what she have done. Anyway, its solved but I would like to emphasize the time that I felt depressed.

I got to admit, in this weak time, the energy to PMO comes again. Seeing images that are triggers and stumble indulge in them (articles or very soft images) I felt weak, I felt helpless and I want to have instant resolve for a while. But Its been 14 days without PMO, its been too long enough to go back and with the help of one of my trusted friend, I solved the problem. I approached her and apologized. I just let humbleness eat me and here I am, motivated again to continue this fight!

For my brothers and sisters who are indulging themselves in PMO or MO, I tell you, face your problems! I have matched that every time I am upset or bored, attack comes and you need to have enough will to shift your focus and face the problem because until you face that problem, surely, you will feel depressed and unmotivated. Have people on your side that will help you to solve the problem, especially your family. We need people to love and accept us that's why we are stuck here. Your friends may walk away from you but your family will never leave you.

For now, the person that I am referring, we are friends again and still doing well.

Let's keep doing this guys! We all can do it, I am in Day 22, you can too. =)
 
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CarloGualvez

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Day 23-34: Anxiety and Sadness

I've mentioned earlier that I have been in a rejection by a woman. But no! That won't make me relapse! I got to be honest, I've been feeling of urges since I felt vulnerable and emotionally weak but that won't make me and here we go, I've reached a milestone of 34 days! I am proud of myself because, its been a battle for me especially when I am tired and facing rejections.

Rejections and turn downs are the usual triggers of this addiction. I know, its been hard and I made a firm decision last November 20 that on that day, it will be stopped. I still believe and so far, I keep on believing. I have fear on the coming days because of the pressures that I will face but I can do this! I know!

Lets keep believing! We can do this!
 
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CarloGualvez

Member
Day O: Thrice!

I had been into a relapse. I am ashamed but since I made it into 36 days, which is a milestone. I can keep going. I am just down right now but I can do this!
 
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