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sjanem
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Hi again, so it has been a week since we had "the talk" about everything. It had been a week since he had PMO'd then, so here is week 2 (start of week 3 for him). He has not PMO'd now in two full weeks. He still has not accepted the 'addiction' as real but, nor looked at the site of the vids (that I know of, but he did say he is willing to "try" and go without P and that he will try to go without M as well but he says that might be more difficult. He does not have ED (that I know of) with him it is more an emotional thing...or should I say emotionless thing. (fyi, if you remember, he has planned to move out to get away from me and the kids for more "alone time")
Here is what I have noticed in the last week since the talk (and no PMO for 2 weeks)...
He is doing things he did not before such as:
-]Noticing and commenting on the decor in the house. It's been there, but he is just noticing.
-He volunteered to wash all the pots and pans from dinner last night (very rare, usually just returns to the room to watch tv or play games on the computer after dinner)
-He agreed to go for a walk with me (something he has always resisted)
-He has given me a few compliments.
-He spoke to the kids, and even tried to include them in activities.
-Despite him planning to move out (and break up) he has decided that he will give the no PMO thing a try.
-He became aroused Friday evening (to me) while kissing! I made the move, (I know, but it had been about 3/4 weeks since even as much as a slightest touch, or accidental bumping into...and we live together and still share a bed! [kingsize]). (BTW, We hadn't kissed in a year maybe?) We kissed for just a few moments and said he "felt something he hadn't felt in a long time" and he got a rock hard and giant erection that I had not seen on him in a very long time. He then said he was confused at what that meant for us, and the whole break up/ moving out thing. (I still am not getting my hopes to high as he has not 'officially' changed his mind yet on leaving.)
I am weary still about leaving the house though, or leaving him alone in the house while I run to the store. So far, for the past week, he has come with me on all outings, and has not been home alone. (Normally, he'd just outright refuse to go to the store with me and give me excuses to not go). This week, whenever I need to go somewhere, I say "are you ready to go?" and says "I have to?", and I say "yes, you need to get out" (very nicely) and he hasn't argued or given any excuses.
-He opens doors for me, and says please and thank you for the littlest things.
-And lastly, he making eye contact with me for longer than a split second and we have had more casual conversation in the last week than we have in the last 2 months! He wants to talk about random things, he is open and honest about his "habits", and yesterday he actually engaged in random conversation and helped in the kitchen during football! Something he would never do before! Ever!
Hopefully this is all really happening and not just him trying to please me in order to avoid confronting the issue, or to "prove" he doesn't have a problem, now that he knows all the signs/ symptoms of the addiction.
That being said, I think he is having a few doubts about leaving (although we have not revisited this issue/discussion yet; one thing at a time) because he is talking in 'future' speak about things. Like finances, bills, decisions, etc. Yet just 2 weeks ago he had made the decision to break up with me and said once everything was in order, he was leaving. Now everything he says is "us" and "we".
I don't know what to make of all this, but I'd like to stay optomistic and trust it is the process taking place.
EEk! What do you all think? Any experiences like this? Is it posssible to see such dramatic changes accross the board in just 1-2 weeks?!?!
Here is what I have noticed in the last week since the talk (and no PMO for 2 weeks)...
He is doing things he did not before such as:
-]Noticing and commenting on the decor in the house. It's been there, but he is just noticing.
-He volunteered to wash all the pots and pans from dinner last night (very rare, usually just returns to the room to watch tv or play games on the computer after dinner)
-He agreed to go for a walk with me (something he has always resisted)
-He has given me a few compliments.
-He spoke to the kids, and even tried to include them in activities.
-Despite him planning to move out (and break up) he has decided that he will give the no PMO thing a try.
-He became aroused Friday evening (to me) while kissing! I made the move, (I know, but it had been about 3/4 weeks since even as much as a slightest touch, or accidental bumping into...and we live together and still share a bed! [kingsize]). (BTW, We hadn't kissed in a year maybe?) We kissed for just a few moments and said he "felt something he hadn't felt in a long time" and he got a rock hard and giant erection that I had not seen on him in a very long time. He then said he was confused at what that meant for us, and the whole break up/ moving out thing. (I still am not getting my hopes to high as he has not 'officially' changed his mind yet on leaving.)
I am weary still about leaving the house though, or leaving him alone in the house while I run to the store. So far, for the past week, he has come with me on all outings, and has not been home alone. (Normally, he'd just outright refuse to go to the store with me and give me excuses to not go). This week, whenever I need to go somewhere, I say "are you ready to go?" and says "I have to?", and I say "yes, you need to get out" (very nicely) and he hasn't argued or given any excuses.
-He opens doors for me, and says please and thank you for the littlest things.
-And lastly, he making eye contact with me for longer than a split second and we have had more casual conversation in the last week than we have in the last 2 months! He wants to talk about random things, he is open and honest about his "habits", and yesterday he actually engaged in random conversation and helped in the kitchen during football! Something he would never do before! Ever!
Hopefully this is all really happening and not just him trying to please me in order to avoid confronting the issue, or to "prove" he doesn't have a problem, now that he knows all the signs/ symptoms of the addiction.
That being said, I think he is having a few doubts about leaving (although we have not revisited this issue/discussion yet; one thing at a time) because he is talking in 'future' speak about things. Like finances, bills, decisions, etc. Yet just 2 weeks ago he had made the decision to break up with me and said once everything was in order, he was leaving. Now everything he says is "us" and "we".
I don't know what to make of all this, but I'd like to stay optomistic and trust it is the process taking place.
EEk! What do you all think? Any experiences like this? Is it posssible to see such dramatic changes accross the board in just 1-2 weeks?!?!