crazygdude
Member
Day 25,
Well I really notice the little nuances that are starting to come back especially within convos. I am starting to be able to say things that come to my mind and not be afraid to say how I really feel instead of worrying about what others think. I feel this good energy throughout the day that just seems to stick around a bit longer. I am able to just do my work without hesitating and beating around the bush. Also my strength has been increasing like crazy and I just seem happier in general. I also began thinking about why I started to use porn heavily. It all stemmed from this loneliness I used to feel all the time. And it was just great to escape using porn and being able to just see these beautiful women I never ever would have gotten to see otherwise. Then this crazy downward spiral just occured and it just got progressively worse until the point of watching porn sometime 3-4 times a day. The craziest thing was when I finally got into a relationship with a girl I believed to be way out of my league and who was beautiful and sexy as hell. I had her and she was willing to have sex with me and I couldn't even get it up. Then I guess that eventually led to us splitting ways and now I wish I had gotten control of this habit earlier. But I can't change the past and can only work towards creating a better future for myself now and put out good energy and hope I can attract my dream girl by living with the qualities that I wish others around me to have as well.
Well I really notice the little nuances that are starting to come back especially within convos. I am starting to be able to say things that come to my mind and not be afraid to say how I really feel instead of worrying about what others think. I feel this good energy throughout the day that just seems to stick around a bit longer. I am able to just do my work without hesitating and beating around the bush. Also my strength has been increasing like crazy and I just seem happier in general. I also began thinking about why I started to use porn heavily. It all stemmed from this loneliness I used to feel all the time. And it was just great to escape using porn and being able to just see these beautiful women I never ever would have gotten to see otherwise. Then this crazy downward spiral just occured and it just got progressively worse until the point of watching porn sometime 3-4 times a day. The craziest thing was when I finally got into a relationship with a girl I believed to be way out of my league and who was beautiful and sexy as hell. I had her and she was willing to have sex with me and I couldn't even get it up. Then I guess that eventually led to us splitting ways and now I wish I had gotten control of this habit earlier. But I can't change the past and can only work towards creating a better future for myself now and put out good energy and hope I can attract my dream girl by living with the qualities that I wish others around me to have as well.