Guy Called Gerald
New Member
Hi Guys without further introduction, here's my story:
- started masturbation ~12 years old
- went from underwear magazines (12yrs old) to hardcore porn (almost daily since ~14yrs old)
- was a late starter with sexuality (18yrs old first time with a girl)
- never had serious long term relationships, only ONS
- i am 24 yrs old now, healthy & pretty much an average guy in general
- over the last year i noticed weaker erections and decreasing sensations of my penis
- at first i didnt blame it on porn and used it almost daily until march this year
(i dont know if this is important, but i only didnt use extrem fetishes, sticked to "normal" b/g)
(i used the "death grip" and did some pretty long porn sessions (3-4hrs) from time to time)
- worrying about the development i started searching the web, found this site, started a reboot
- reached 45 days without PMO second try, relapsed 4 times during 1 week (to porn gifs)
- during the reboot my erections were getting better, around 40 days in i pretty sure had a like 95% erection
- sensations were also coming back really, really slowly
now my "problem":
- i met a wonderful girl, who is my girlfriend now and since 2 weeks we do petting with O
- this is incredible to say but i think it slows down my reboot immensely
- i get erections from kissing, i stay hard at ~80%, but when she starts blowing/jerking me i dont feel very much
(we dont have sex at the moment, since she wants to wait, what is fine with me)
- to climax i really have to concentrate on the feeling, even sometimes cramp my legs
summary:
- overall i think i am doing good rebooting, after an incredible hard start
(daily strong cravings, moodiness, porn flashbacks)
i have reached a point where i have very little urges to watch porn (and they fade away quickly)
- my brain is probably not 100% rebooted since i am not getting 100% erect when with my gf (okay, time will heal it with further porn abstinence)
- but does petting/sex slow my reboot down? i mean since i am getting my almost daily dopamine fix?
- and more and most important: when will my sensations come back? i am really worried about that
- i almost not touched myself during the last 2 month and i dont have the feeling anything is getting better
- the tip of my penis doenst get hard and rarely feels sensations (it was very, very sensitive ~a year ago)
- now i really dont know how to continue and i hope you guys could give me advice
- should i stop being intimate with my gf for a while?
- i dont really want to, but do i still improve when we continue like now? (O every 2 days to blow/handjobs)
- i am so sad at the moment, i have the feeling i killed this shitty addiction and now my penis is letting me down
- started masturbation ~12 years old
- went from underwear magazines (12yrs old) to hardcore porn (almost daily since ~14yrs old)
- was a late starter with sexuality (18yrs old first time with a girl)
- never had serious long term relationships, only ONS
- i am 24 yrs old now, healthy & pretty much an average guy in general
- over the last year i noticed weaker erections and decreasing sensations of my penis
- at first i didnt blame it on porn and used it almost daily until march this year
(i dont know if this is important, but i only didnt use extrem fetishes, sticked to "normal" b/g)
(i used the "death grip" and did some pretty long porn sessions (3-4hrs) from time to time)
- worrying about the development i started searching the web, found this site, started a reboot
- reached 45 days without PMO second try, relapsed 4 times during 1 week (to porn gifs)
- during the reboot my erections were getting better, around 40 days in i pretty sure had a like 95% erection
- sensations were also coming back really, really slowly
now my "problem":
- i met a wonderful girl, who is my girlfriend now and since 2 weeks we do petting with O
- this is incredible to say but i think it slows down my reboot immensely
- i get erections from kissing, i stay hard at ~80%, but when she starts blowing/jerking me i dont feel very much
(we dont have sex at the moment, since she wants to wait, what is fine with me)
- to climax i really have to concentrate on the feeling, even sometimes cramp my legs
summary:
- overall i think i am doing good rebooting, after an incredible hard start
(daily strong cravings, moodiness, porn flashbacks)
i have reached a point where i have very little urges to watch porn (and they fade away quickly)
- my brain is probably not 100% rebooted since i am not getting 100% erect when with my gf (okay, time will heal it with further porn abstinence)
- but does petting/sex slow my reboot down? i mean since i am getting my almost daily dopamine fix?
- and more and most important: when will my sensations come back? i am really worried about that
- i almost not touched myself during the last 2 month and i dont have the feeling anything is getting better
- the tip of my penis doenst get hard and rarely feels sensations (it was very, very sensitive ~a year ago)
- now i really dont know how to continue and i hope you guys could give me advice
- should i stop being intimate with my gf for a while?
- i dont really want to, but do i still improve when we continue like now? (O every 2 days to blow/handjobs)
- i am so sad at the moment, i have the feeling i killed this shitty addiction and now my penis is letting me down