Faptain America
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Hey guys! Didn't get to my journal this weekend but I'm here now! I've had several job opportunities and other things going on these past few weeks that have shuffled around my free time. I'm glad to see everyone is doing pretty well on the porn front. Since I started partway through march i'm at about 80% success. Going into the future i'd like to get that above 85%. May is here and i'm hoping to get to at least three weeks. In this update I want to address my two week mark and my findings therein.
Post Six- The Sexy Six
Alright, so back on March 22nd I made noPMO history for myself and hit the two week mark. At that time I could definitely notice a large reduction in urge intensity, if not volume. I no longer felt as though porn was so much of a want that it was bordering need. I certainly missed it though. My endurance during sex has gone way down as well which is a bit of a bummer. I'm going to supplement Kegel exercises into my daily routine because I definitely want to last longer during sex. On the plus side, i'm noticing a change to my refractory period (the time it takes you to go for seconds) so i'm curious if i'll be able to have a round two within the same session of sexy time with my wife.
This is where things may get a little controversial with you guys out there: I made the choice to go back to porn after the two week mark. I didn't have to. I could've kept going. I wanted to see what would happen to me if I went back to it as part of this process.
For the first few days I didn't notice a measurable change backwards, but for the following days I noticed immediate regression towards my pre-noPMO state. This is revealing to me. This affirms that I was making progress with re-wiring which is a bit of a duh, but it also gives me sort of a framework for what kind of "grace period" I have between relapses dependent on how long i've gone without porn.
I also noticed that it's harder to get started rebooting again post relapse if i've gone a few weeks or longer noPMO. It's also harder to stay on track for the first two or three days because I feel like since I don't have many days logged I could just start back at day one with little consequence for my streak.
I don't have any new strategies this time around because I feel what I was doing was working very well. Now that I have this data i'm confident that I can make it three weeks. I'd love to get to four weeks this time around but that is a secondary goal at this point.
Also, I don't know if this is going to happen or not but as a super-long-term goal i'd love to get to the point where I could still watch porn occasionally. This may take several years or may never happen. I don't know. Just a thought.
So that's pretty much it. Three days in this time around. Thanks for reading.
-The Faptain
Post Six- The Sexy Six
Alright, so back on March 22nd I made noPMO history for myself and hit the two week mark. At that time I could definitely notice a large reduction in urge intensity, if not volume. I no longer felt as though porn was so much of a want that it was bordering need. I certainly missed it though. My endurance during sex has gone way down as well which is a bit of a bummer. I'm going to supplement Kegel exercises into my daily routine because I definitely want to last longer during sex. On the plus side, i'm noticing a change to my refractory period (the time it takes you to go for seconds) so i'm curious if i'll be able to have a round two within the same session of sexy time with my wife.
This is where things may get a little controversial with you guys out there: I made the choice to go back to porn after the two week mark. I didn't have to. I could've kept going. I wanted to see what would happen to me if I went back to it as part of this process.
For the first few days I didn't notice a measurable change backwards, but for the following days I noticed immediate regression towards my pre-noPMO state. This is revealing to me. This affirms that I was making progress with re-wiring which is a bit of a duh, but it also gives me sort of a framework for what kind of "grace period" I have between relapses dependent on how long i've gone without porn.
I also noticed that it's harder to get started rebooting again post relapse if i've gone a few weeks or longer noPMO. It's also harder to stay on track for the first two or three days because I feel like since I don't have many days logged I could just start back at day one with little consequence for my streak.
I don't have any new strategies this time around because I feel what I was doing was working very well. Now that I have this data i'm confident that I can make it three weeks. I'd love to get to four weeks this time around but that is a secondary goal at this point.
Also, I don't know if this is going to happen or not but as a super-long-term goal i'd love to get to the point where I could still watch porn occasionally. This may take several years or may never happen. I don't know. Just a thought.
So that's pretty much it. Three days in this time around. Thanks for reading.
-The Faptain