Hey folks!
It's been a long time since i've been on. Almost a year actually. I'm still banging around fighting the good fight. Things are going good! I'm back on the wagon and am feeling very successful of late. I'm staying away from porn and just using my brain for fantasies. In many ways I don't even miss it anymore. Sometimes it was fun looking when bored but it just doesn't have the same allure it used to. After a while it just feels all the same. Nothing even really changes and I can tell it's just a job for them. Maybe when i'm further along i'll have a harder go of it but lately I feel like i'm cruising.
I started thinking today about this addiction in general and thought I should update my thoughts.
Often times with addiction/habits the first stage of getting rid of it is overlooked. The first stage is always discovery. I'm not talking about discovering you have an issue; that part usually becomes obvious otherwise you wouldn't be trying to get rid of it! I'm talking about the part where you research what kind of a problem you have, why you have it, how much of a problem it is, and what you can do to get rid of it.
For us discovery is all about finding out how much you PMO, when you do it, why you do it, and how you can stop or slow down. As for any habit it's good to spend some time in the beginning learning about these things because with that data in mind it will be easier and more meaningful moving forward.
If you're just getting started, keep a journal for a few weeks to see any familiar patterns. Spend some time without judging yourself or changing any routines. Some folks have a hard time with this because they want to feel like they are stopping RIGHT NOW, but this isn't a sprint, it's a marathon.
I'm not much of a fan of quitting this habit cold turkey and i'll tell you why:
There is nothing quite like an orgasm.
You can replace masturbation with a good workout, a cold shower, quality time with friends or family, but at the end of the day there's nothing to replace an orgasm. Smokers can stick a toothpick in their mouth; nail biters can chew gum; dieters can replace one food for another. Nothing can fully replace an orgasm. Sure, you can find a sexual partner and use that to get off of porn but i've found that having sex just makes me want to orgasm more.
Since there is nothing to truly replace PMO, I feel it is important to wean yourself off of this addiction. Once you have determined how much you PMO, start by cutting that number down a little bit at a time. If you PMO four times a day, make it three (or two if you can handle it). Stick with that for a while, then cut off a little more. Keep doing that and give your body and brain time to adjust. Cold turkey has a very low success rate because it shocks your system and makes big changes to your normal daily routine.
This has always worked better for me than cold turkey, on many habits. With nail biting I stopped biting on one hand first. It took about 2 months, but it worked. After that I stopped both hands really easily. Same for dieting. I lost a bunch of weight by making small changes like eating sliced turkey instead of ham for my sandwiches and having frozen yogurt instead of ice cream. I still ate alot of what I wanted throughout the week but by making small changes I stayed under my calorie goal and never really felt like I was dieting. I lost 17 pounds in 6 months. Yeah, it didn't exactly melt off of me, but that's the trick! Marathon. We always want results NOW NOW NOW, but I plan on living for a long time and i'm in no rush to do anything but have a good time. Small changes, easier adjustment, less failure, more victory.
It's these small changes which show us we have power over something we didn't think we had power over. Routine Routine Routine. We get stuck in routines whether good, bad, or neutral, but when we change the routines, even a little, we find power over them we didn't think we had.
Plus when you wean, you make room for more victories and failures are less noticable which i'm a big fan of
These are all my opinions, and I know there's lots of folks on here who had to quit cold turkey due to their own circumstances so don't just take my word for it, but I highly recommend my method.
Anyways, i'm gonna go catch up on some other journals and see where that takes me. Thanks for reading!
Cheers,
-The Faptain