June 6, 2016
Thought I'd share some milestones I've passed on my journey and list the ones I'm looking forward to as well.
Milestones on the path to Renewing My Mind:
0 - 13 days, This was a tricky time for me, the habitual use of porn was a daily routine and now it'd gone missing. What to do? The first few days, after coming off a binge, always seemed so easy, but its because my brain was still SWIMMING in Dopamine and made me believe I didn't need things like filters, I felt strong. This time was critical I think to have filters and blockers and to have NO devices. I made up my mind, the habit must be broken and COLD TURKEY is the only successful way, cutting down just prolongs the pain indefinitely.
14 - 21 days, From my experience, once I reach this zone I'm far enough from my last fall that I forget the pain of lapsing/relapsing and only remember the pleasure and revert to old habits for comfort. Its kinda like swinging from vine to vine and your in mid air between them for a moment. In that moment I'm adrift, I havent reached the next level, but I'm feeling empty and restless from the absince of the Dopamine and PMO behavior. I've learned this is just your brain crying out for a, Dopamine Blast(Not a Sports Drink). Cycle repeats unless measures taken to interrupt it. Understand, you don't have to MO to cause an elevation in your brains dopamine levels, just looking at porn or p-subs is enough. P-subs can be scantily clad women in car mags, FB pix, lingerie ads, checking out women and on and on. If you get a charge from it, you got a Dopamine Blast. So cut it all out, the music, the tv, the dvds and the web porn. its all gotta go or you will NEVER escape!
22-41 days, This is the area I'm in now, I have some random brain fog, this past weekend and a few random thoughts popped up today, but I dealt with them quickly and moved on. I'm in an area I haven't been in, in probably 8 years, that's the last time I went 40 days PMO free during an online study course called, "Setting Captives Free". During that course I lapsed 2 times and had to restart before going PMO free all the way through. In all honesty I think it was a good course and it helped a lot of guys, but sadly my lack of motivation to "stay sober" and its shorter time frame than whats probably needed to Reboot, led to my eventually fully relapsing shortly after completing it. I also at that time was NOT in favor of filters and dumped mine after graduation. I know myself better now and so I'm utilizing a Filter(K9) and a Blocker(Pluckeye) in tandem. In my heart of hearts I want this to be my last time around, life is too short to spend it sitting at a PC with my pants around my ankles.(Too Honest?)
6-8 weeks, the DeltaFosB begins to leave the brain. DeltaFosB is the foundation for building habits, both bad and good.
It makes the neural pathways more conductive, so it essentially makes PMO, "The Path of least Resistance".
90 Days+(Your Mileage may vary), the DeltaFosB has cleared your system in the areas you have restricted and new healthier habits can now be built to replace the old.