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Feetfirst
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Hi Boo, thank you for dropping by to say farewell, I appreciate your kind and heart felt words. You have been a great support to me and many others. I would encourage you to drop back from time to time, let us know how you are doing and offer up longer term wisdom. Wishing you all strength and joy, keep well. FF
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I appreciate your recent visits and comments. I'm writing my last journal post now. I'm reaching 90 complete days PMO-free in a couple of hours.
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Feetfirst
I appreciate your recent visits and comments. I'm writing my last journal post now. I'm reaching 90 complete days PMO-free in a couple of hours.
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Chip
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2 Hours to go for 90! Whoo-Hooo! Lets celebrate with some porn... Just Kidding. Its been a honor, we didn't always agree, but we did always respect.
Be well Boo.
Be well Boo.
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Boo
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Chip said:
Thanks Chip. You're a "MAN who quit porn". All respect to you. I'll be back here to read your manifesto when you publish. Yours in Christ,
Boo
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Boo
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Well, this is my last post in my journal here at Reboot Nation. I?ve reached my 90 day goal. My journal isn?t particularly long but I I?ve tried to make some contributions that were useful and a bit transparent. Probably most of what I?ve said is because I needed to hear it myself. I?ve always appreciated the support and interest that some of you have shown. I hope I?ve reciprocated in kind.
I never wanted to replace physical masturbation with mental masturbation here at RN. There?s only so many ways to talk about all of this before one reaches the point of diminishing returns, not only for the writer, but also for the reader. My goal was to post only when I had something worthwhile to say and then try to say it well. I came here with a commitment to myself. I?ve been very serious and I?ve refused to ever feel victimized by PMO. Like everything else in my life, I am responsible.
Quitting PMO and its related habits is for me not only an act of volition but a change of heart. My change of heart began when I finally matured to the point of saying ?Enough is enough. I?m a man, I?m a free moral agent, and I?m not going to live like this anymore?. My little poem/affirmation below serves to remind me of my innate responsibility to myself to live in a way that serves my greater good:
I am not a prisoner of bad habits,
I am a master of good habits.
I will live my life in that truth every day,
until whatever pain resides there, fades away, fades away.
Going forward I know that although I could have a slip here or there I will never have a full blown relapse. I?m not self delusional and I know that at least some challenges lie ahead. As George Carlin said about addiction, ?just because you got the monkey off your back doesn?t mean the circus has left town?. I believe urges will fade evermore over time but I?ll also keep Jean Cocteau?s quote in mind ?The dead drug leaves a ghost behind. At certain hours it haunts the house?. I believe it always will. My quiver is full of mental arrows to shoot at the ghost and make it fade away quickly. So, I no longer fear the ghost, although it may reside in my mental house till the day I die. Men, don?t fear the ghost: Master it!
My final advice would be to always have a viable strategy for handling the inevitable urges or cravings. They will come when you least expect it. It?s a rare person who can completely leave this stuff behind without any cravings or urges hitting them in the future. Memory is a powerful thing. Please remember why you came here to RN in the first place. I?ve always said you had to have a clearly defined ?why?. Never let a lapse turn into a relapse. Forgive yourself while you discipline yourself. Don?t give up on your ability to heal yourself.
Many of us lost a piece of our innocence at a young age when we were first exposed to pornography, in whatever form and however we came upon it. None of that matters now. We?re men?. we have to transcend that sad reality and live as noble adults. Life is a tapestry. I hope all of us can weave our tapestries well going forward.
I?ll probably check in on journals (read only), to see who?s progressing. For now, I?m going to say goodbye with a short film clip that captures the innocence of youth in a very lovely way. (Everyone in porn was someone?s child first) My late, beloved mother took me too see this film when I was a young boy. With all the ugliness in this world, there?s still sweetness to behold. I want to close with something sweet, and for me, maybe it?s a tad bittersweet. It?s called ?So Long, Farewell? and it?s from ?The Sound of Music?. Be well and God bless! Boo
https://vimeo.com/31680681
I never wanted to replace physical masturbation with mental masturbation here at RN. There?s only so many ways to talk about all of this before one reaches the point of diminishing returns, not only for the writer, but also for the reader. My goal was to post only when I had something worthwhile to say and then try to say it well. I came here with a commitment to myself. I?ve been very serious and I?ve refused to ever feel victimized by PMO. Like everything else in my life, I am responsible.
Quitting PMO and its related habits is for me not only an act of volition but a change of heart. My change of heart began when I finally matured to the point of saying ?Enough is enough. I?m a man, I?m a free moral agent, and I?m not going to live like this anymore?. My little poem/affirmation below serves to remind me of my innate responsibility to myself to live in a way that serves my greater good:
I am not a prisoner of bad habits,
I am a master of good habits.
I will live my life in that truth every day,
until whatever pain resides there, fades away, fades away.
Going forward I know that although I could have a slip here or there I will never have a full blown relapse. I?m not self delusional and I know that at least some challenges lie ahead. As George Carlin said about addiction, ?just because you got the monkey off your back doesn?t mean the circus has left town?. I believe urges will fade evermore over time but I?ll also keep Jean Cocteau?s quote in mind ?The dead drug leaves a ghost behind. At certain hours it haunts the house?. I believe it always will. My quiver is full of mental arrows to shoot at the ghost and make it fade away quickly. So, I no longer fear the ghost, although it may reside in my mental house till the day I die. Men, don?t fear the ghost: Master it!
My final advice would be to always have a viable strategy for handling the inevitable urges or cravings. They will come when you least expect it. It?s a rare person who can completely leave this stuff behind without any cravings or urges hitting them in the future. Memory is a powerful thing. Please remember why you came here to RN in the first place. I?ve always said you had to have a clearly defined ?why?. Never let a lapse turn into a relapse. Forgive yourself while you discipline yourself. Don?t give up on your ability to heal yourself.
Many of us lost a piece of our innocence at a young age when we were first exposed to pornography, in whatever form and however we came upon it. None of that matters now. We?re men?. we have to transcend that sad reality and live as noble adults. Life is a tapestry. I hope all of us can weave our tapestries well going forward.
I?ll probably check in on journals (read only), to see who?s progressing. For now, I?m going to say goodbye with a short film clip that captures the innocence of youth in a very lovely way. (Everyone in porn was someone?s child first) My late, beloved mother took me too see this film when I was a young boy. With all the ugliness in this world, there?s still sweetness to behold. I want to close with something sweet, and for me, maybe it?s a tad bittersweet. It?s called ?So Long, Farewell? and it?s from ?The Sound of Music?. Be well and God bless! Boo
https://vimeo.com/31680681
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